friday tazkirah 2

-30 july 2010-

Surah Ar-Rad:11

"...Sesungguhnya Allah tidak mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sehingga mereka mengubah keadaan yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri. Dan apabila Allah menghendaki keburukan terhadap sesuatu kaum, maka tak ada yang dapat menolaknya; dan sekali-kali tak ada pelindung bagi mereka selain Dia." 

WE LIVE JUST ONCE. SO AT THE END OF MY TIME I WANT TO DIE WITH MY FOREHEAD ON THE GROUND. THE SUNNAH IN MY HEART. ALLAH SWT ON MY MIND. QURAN ON MY TONGUE AND TEARS IN MY EYES. amin.

hidup ni susah...byk btl dugaan, byk btl cabaran, byk btl halangan, byk btl tanggungjwb...tapi siapalah kite nk merungut setiap masa...teruskan hidup sebaik-baiknya...ramai lagi yg lebih susah, yg lebih menderita...ramai jugak yg xsempat nk nikmati hidup ni sebagaimana kita skrg...gunakan peluang yg ada, hargai kesempatan yg diberikan...laksanakan segala perintah tuhan...selesaikan mana2 tugas mengikut kemampuan...lakukan dgn penuh tekun & sabar...biar lambat, asal lengkap & habis jugak akhirnya...jaga diri, jaga akhlak & ibadah...tugas manusia bkn di dunia semata2, ada juga tugas demi akhirat nanti...
hidup ni susah...tapi setiap yg kita lakukan perlulah ikhlas dari hati...kerana setiap niat itu ada ganjarannya...tuhan itu maha pemurah & penyayang...insyaallah usaha yg gigih pasti dpt kejayaan...dlm kesusahan, ada jugak saat2 senang...dlm kesedihan, ada jugak saat2 bahagia...dlm kegagalan, ada jugak saat2 berjaya...belajarlah bersyukur dgn apa yg ada...kdg2 apa yg kite mahukan itu bukan yg terbaik utk kite, jadi tuhan tarik dgn mcm2 cara...lalu memberi sesuatu yg mungkin kite xberkenan, tapi itulah sebaik2 kurniaan tuhan...sape tahu yg itu rupa2nya 10 kali ganda lebih baik...sabar & teruskan bersabar...islam itu mudah, islam is a way of life...xada jalan islam yg bercanggah dgn naluri kemanusiaan ataupun kemampuan kita...jadi hadapilah dgn sebaik2nya...dgn niat yg baik, insyaallah allah akan meringankan setiap kesusahan, permudahkan setiap kesukaran...

d o a  u n t u k  d i r i k u:

• ya tuhan, biarlah hatiku terang utk menyerap ilmu, lapangkanlah dadaku...mudah-mudahan segala fahaman & hafalan akan terpahat kukuh dlm ingatan...niatku ikhlas utk belajar & menjadi seorg doktor yg berjaya...biar ilmu yg dipelajari dpt digunakan utk membantu & menolong org ramai, sampai bila2...berilah aku kejayaan, semoga aku dpt lalui segala ujian & peperiksaan dgn lancar, semoga aku dpt buat yg terbaik...oh god, let me pass the exam...i really wanna go home with a peaceful heart, bringing good news to my loved ones...let me make them proud & happy, please dont give them such disappointment...please...
• ya tuhan, peliharalah diriku dari segala maksiat, kejahatan, kemungkaran, kelalaian...tetapkanlah hatiku pada jalanmu...andai aku tersesat, tersilap langkah, tersasar arah, kembalikanlah aku pada jlnmu tuhan...berilah aku petunjuk hidayahmu...sungguh, hati ini kdg2 terlupa dgn janjiku untukmu...sungguh diriku hny manusia lemah, hambamu yg masih rapuh...tenangkanlah hatiku...moga hidupku & matiku dlm keredhaanmu...
• ya tuhan, aku bersyukur padamu dgn segala nikmat kesenangan yg kau berikan...semoga kurniaanmu itu utk kebaikan diriku, dan bukan utk melalaikan diriku...semoga nikmat itu dpt mendekatkan diriku padamu tuhan...andai nikmat itu bukan terbaik utk diriku, maka bukakanlah mataku, relakanlah hatiku utk kembalikannya padamu...andai nikmat itu yg terbaik buatku, maka tetapkanlah hatiku, permudahkanlah jalanku...padamu kusembah ya allah, dan padamu kuminta pertolongan...
• ya tuhan, niatku utk menjadi muslimah yg berjaya di dunia & akhirat...ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku...permudahkanlah jalanku utk mendekatkan diri padamu tuhan...biarlah segala niat baik, impian & harapan dpt menjadi kenyataan...ringankanlah segala kesukaran, jauhkanlah dari keraguan...bukakanlah pintu peluang kebaikan...

beriman-beragama-berakhlak-terhormat-terpelihara

i saw this pic in iluvislam.com...so im putting it here to share out with everyone...hehe...what an interesting analogy...it even stated that muslimah should love themselves, be the wrapped lollipop, not the unwrapped one...nice~ walaupun aku ni bertudung, tapi agak terase jugak la dgn pernyataan ni...nk terase ape pun xtau...but terase jugak la...sedikit pedih dlm hati...huuu~ hmm, myb sbb aku sendiri masih belum betul2 lengkap & sempurna...terumbang-ambing lagi...xtau sgt nk jadi sempurna mcm mane, tapi xpelah, sikit2 ubah diri...setakat yg termampu, setakat yg tahu...dpd kecik dah diberi didikan dpd ibubapa, kt sekolah pun dh blajar dh...cume skrg tgl diri nk praktikkan je...perjuangan ni hny diriku sorg...dosa pun tanggung sendiri je...skrg dh xde sape nk jerit kalau dok buat salah pun, xde sape dh nk suruh buat itu ini...sume bergantung pd diri sendiri...pandai2lah jaga diri...and so, im trying my best here...biarlah setiap langkah tu menjadikan diriku lebih baik, dan bukannye terpesong lagi...insyaallah...

looking at u...Mr Star :)

aliacenturion ♥ fahmiracle

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from my memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

The starlight
I will be chasing your starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away,

never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes & revelations
And our hopes and expectations
Black holes & revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away,

never fade away

And our hopes and expectations
Black holes & revelations, yeah
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes & revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold

muse: starlight

a simple notification here

im gonna make this blog private in 3-days time

for friends ♥ family only

im gonna approve u up, definitely...no harsh feelings okay sweethearts...

im doing this just to make sure no attention-seeker-stalker could leave some kinda pathetic comments on my blog anymore...told ya to just read & leave if u dnt like any of the posts...MYOB pls~

by all means, i dont wanna be rude to anybody, this is just so not me...but i really2 dislike people messing with my life...nobody does aite...get a life will ya...find ur own space...i dont do cursing & i dont do the middle finger thing...i'm just restricting my blog, thts all...some privacy is very much needed for me & my loved ones...

so please understand okay people ♥

(and owh, decent people are welcomed here too...boleh2, no prob...bukan hot stuff sgt pun blog ni, biase2 je...jst leave ur mail ok...*wink*)

till then, world peace

Shania Twain : From This Moment ♥

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment

aya ♥ fahmi

a love letter to mr soulmate (modern version pakai blog je) hihi

i'd like to hug u & never let u go

♥

dear Fahmi,

thank you so much for existing in my life...seriously u came out of nowhere, revealing urself in a perfect way that made me fall for u, hardly & deeply...and i kept on falling for u sweetie...lantak la org nk ckp ape, alia betul2 dah jatuh cinta dgn fahmi...somehow, u r the guy i've been looking for in my life...the imperfect guy who fits me so well that i myself still can't believe that he's here already...THE GUY...THE ONE...THE BETTERHALF...god sent u to me...the one that He promised to give...and i'm accepting u whole heartedly...its never too early to say this, but i really hope we'll last long, god's will please make it forever...i really love this sweet, loving, caring guy...everyday is a new day for us, everyday we'll have our moments...i'm glad we've found each other...hey, mr soulmate, what take u so long to appear in my life? hehe...finally I have found a place into which I fit perfectly, safely & securely with no doubts, no fears, no sadness, no tears...this place is filled with happiness & laughter, yet it is spacious enough to allow me the freedom to move around, to live my life & to be myself...this wonderful place, which I never believed really existed, I have found finally, in your arms, in your heart, in your love...thank u so much...

♥

the greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return

thank you for loving me syg...i'm the luckiest of all :)

ENCIK MUHAMMAD FAHMI RADZUAN

thank you for being so supportive in my study, and thanks for the goodluck card u sent...the cute card had already been nicely pasted on my desk...hehe...tht was so sweet of u to do so...and yes sweetie, it really made me feel tht u r always here by my side...anyway, YOU ARE ALWAYS HERE BY MY SIDE...hehe...exam mode had never been this interesting...im studying in a happy mode...xpernah2 dok study smbil suke hati okayyy...hahaha...i love u b...thanks for being THE GUY...u r definitely my booster dosage...hehe...i suke sgt bile pepagi exam u'd make a wake up call...sending me comforting msgs...wishing me all the best for my papers...listening to my blabs on how hard my exm was or how tiring i am confronting the books...and u kept on cheering me up, whenever i feel down...u r always there...no one had ever done to tht extent...thank you... :) i feel so important...there's sum1 out there who really2 care for me...heeee~ terase disayangi, and im so happy :D and i love u for tht...

 thank you so much too for the love letter u wrote...hehehe...i sgt suke mendapat surat cinta sebegini...this would be my 1st surat cinta, dalam zaman serba canggih ni...lemah gemalai kaki i, cair bair hati i, senyum simpul bibir i, berdegup kencang jantung i, terawang2 sungguh tatkala membaca bait2 kata romantismu :D classic sungguh kan bercinta mcm ni...heeee~ i sgt2 suke...i love u b!!!! 

"....it's all written down purely from the heart of a man that's deeply in love with you...

Sayang, to me you're my perfect being, my better-half, the one i want to spend my lifetime loving. I feel utterly complete with you. It's like getting a piece of the missing piece of the 'life' jigsaw puzzle. And for that I would like you not to be only a chapter of my book of life, I also want you to be the main character in this book, Insyaallah I would like you to be the conclusion to it...."

aaawwww, sgt sweet kan encik fahmi saye...hehe...i love u so much b...u're the most romantic guy i've ever met...and everything u do, never fail to move my heart...im falling for u over & over again...and the feeling never stops...we have a long way to go b...a lot more to come in the future...but at least now, having you by my side, i'd have this confidence & stronger faith that we'll be just fine, and we'll get through it all...for better or worse, i'll be by ur side too...okay?

please god, let this man be mine...forever ♥

p/s: aya syg u sgt2 tau b :) kemslm rindu...im missing u so much...even right now...skrg kamu sedang tidur dgn nyenyaknya...but im sure u'll read this by tomorrow morning...hehe...till then, with lots of hugs & kisses for u, from manipal, india ;) salam~

Martina McBride : I Just Call You Mine ♥

I pinch myself sometimes to make sure

I'm not in a dream, that's how it seems

I close my eyes and breathe in the sweetest moments

I've ever known, it feels like home

And here I am, I wanna be your everything

There you are turning winter into spring

And everyone that sees you always wants to know you

And everyone that knows you always has a smile

You're a standing ovation after years of waiting

For a chance to fall and shine

Everyone calls you amazing, I just call you mine

I fall apart and just a word from you somehow seems to fix

Whatever's wrong, you reach into the weakest moments

And remind me that I'm strong, you've gotta know

I'd be a fool not to see or even worse

To forget that you're more than I deserved

'Cause everyone that sees you always wants to know you

And everyone that knows you always has a smile

You're a standing ovation after years of waiting

For a chance to fall and shine

Everyone calls you amazing, I just call you mine

Nothing makes sense when you're not here

As it my whole world disappears

Without you what's the point of anything?

'Cause everyone that sees you always wants to know you

And everyone that knows you always has a smile

You're the dream that I've been chasing after years of waiting

For a chance to fall and shine

Everyone calls you amazing, I just call you mine

Everyone calls you amazing,

I just call you mine

aya♥fahmi

Jesse McCartney : Come To Me ♥

Under the silver stars,

Right where he broke your heart.

Girl you know, I'd give you everything.

I wanna hold your hand,

And say the words he never said.

I'll make you promises you can believe.

Let me be the one, Telling you it's alright

Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.

Let me be the one, Loving you when you're weak.

For all of the strength you need, You can come to me.

When you're down and you feel so lonely

Turn around, you can come to me

When you're down baby, I will be the only

Come to me

You can just be yourself,

'Cause I don't want nobody else.

All of your secrets are safe with me.

For the kind of love you can trust,

For more than just a crush,

Baby, why don't you just come to me?

Let me be the one, Telling you it's alright

Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.

Let me be the one, Loving you when you're weak.

For all of the strength you need, You can come to me.

When I've got you in my arms (got you in my arms)

Say it's where you wanna be (where you wanna be, yeah)

'Cause girl I'm down on my knees

Promising my heart oh, my heart

Whenever you need me, ah

Whenever you need me girl

Whenever you need me, ah

Oh, I'll be there

♥

picture speaks a thousand words ♥

~one day~

♥
(^_^)

exam mode : 2nd YEAR UNI EXM :(

Everyone will feel so stressed out when it comes to exams...this usually means that you'll feel extremely tired (physically + emotionally exhausted), 24/7 under pressure, mentally confused, always worried that you won't do well or even flunk the papers till you had to repeat another freakin 6 months for the next retake paper...plus, the guilt and shame that come together with that awful failure...what a mess...some says those feelings (the worries + the fears) are normal and often encourage us to do that extra bit of revision, listen a little more to the information in a lesson and work in a better mode...tht's good, i guess...it'll at least drive your guts, move your lazy ass and make you work harder than your usual self...am i right? huhuhu...

However, too much pressure and anxiety can make you feel really bad...totally...it'll get worse when you find yourself confined in your compact room with lots of books + notes all around...out of the human world i shall say, the only companions you have might be the roaches & minnies & spideys...huuu~ (or worse, the toyols & pontis a.k.a segala creature ghaib2 penunggu bilik..hehehehhehehe...part ni sgt suke...heee~) okay, i might have been exaggerating bout that...but really, you'll be less in touch with people...all of your time would be mainly bout you and your sweet2 books...dating la berjam2 setiap hari...wajib berkepit okay, nk berpisah sekejap pun terase bersalah...huhu...ade jugak perasaan kalau2 buku tu nangih & sumpah kite fail dengan teruknye...kejam bukan bile main ugut2...huhuh...blame the stress people...your brain might think and look at the world in 360 degrees in all possible stupid ways...huhuhu...silly evil thoughts...

In some cases, you may be unable to concentrate on your work and may find that you are overly worrying about how you will do in your exam (this is so true...huuu~)...some people often deal with exam stress in many unhelpful ways, such as ignoring the problem, not revising because they think that they will do badly anyway and missing exams due to the anxiety that they are feeling (i could hardly understand this, but people do it anyway...simply skip the exam...huuu~ sorry la, this gal really cares bout her future, giving up without even trying is so not her...that's just stupid~ you will be limiting your chances of doing really well!! who knows you might ace the paper, if you study of course...huhu)

Exam anxiety can also make you worry during the exam, for example you may feel that other people are managing the exam better than you (this is so true right) or that they will be finding it really easy whereas you are struggling (so true sgain...huhu). This can cause you to feel that your mind has ‘gone blank’ on information that you know that you have revised or that you know well...or for some people like me, you'll have this nervous feelings all the time that makes you become so reckless & restless...and become a slight insomniac that you find yourself hard to sleep at night...and if you managed to sleep, you'll end up having this heavily-puzzled-so-tiring dreams every time you enter the lalaladreamland...moral of the story, never compare yourself to others...just be the better you each & every time you study...and do your very best in your exam...pray hard...and you'll be fine...(im having these probs, but still im gonna keep on telling myself to be calm + cool...and dnt give up...huhuhu)

MARI STUDY2 DGN GIGIH BERUSAHA, 

SUPAYA NANTI BOLEH PULANG BERAYA

DGN HATI YG RIANG GEMBIRA

~YEAY~

lebih krg cmni la jadinye bile dok tension2 exam ni...lunyai dh jiwa, huhuhu...its true...only god knws how tired i am everyday...people might see me smiling happily on the outside, huuhaa all the time...but really, im so exhausted...10 hours per day, utk baca + hafal buku2 gemok gedabak tu, sungguh memenatkan...tu xtambah dgn tekanan emosi tension2 ni kan...haiiiihhh, nobody said it'll be easy...they jst tell me to endure it all, demi masa depan yg terang benderang...but really, i dnt knw...betul ke masa depan sungguh cerah begitu...huhu...i dnt knw...all i knw is tht i have to live for the present, just do my best, and insyaallah the best outcome i'll get too...God is always fair, right? and im so grateful to have such wonderful people around me...the fmly, the besties, the boyfie, the buddies, and every1 else are very2 supportive & proud of me...they'll be happy with what i have and whatever i be...thank you everybody...♥ i'll be happy when you are happy too...pray for the best ok...love u all...no matter what...

a flow of thoughts 9

i miss appa & amma so much

*homesick*

for mr soulmate ♥

this is not a love song or a poem

they're just my deeper thoughts

and inner feelings

towards this special person whom i love the most

MUHAMMAD FAHMI RADZUAN

u knw i love u right? ;)

L.♥.V.E

Love is when u miss him, even before he leaves

and u find urself always yearn for his presence, 

looking forward everyday, waiting for him, no matter what

Love is when the sound of his name, sends chills down ur spine

and you get lots of butterflies in your stomach, even when he only says hi

u'll feel out of the world when the romantic words came out

and of course everything seems perfect when he's around

Love is when u could listen to him, talk all night,

without ever getting tired of hearing his voice 

u could say anything to him, cause u know he's there listening

u feel like sharing all the bitters & butters of your life

laughing & crying at the same time

you know it's love when every the tiny details that seem insignificant to other

appear so incredible, magnificent and important to you

and you know it's love when you feel like spending the rest of your life with him

and you really hope that happy ending starts right away

You know he's the one when u love him

more than any other guy in the world

never want to let him go, or even think about losing him

wishing he's by your side every single moment

When you need him the most, he'll always be there

and assure you that things are going to be okay, 

giving you strength that you need, supporting you in any way

you know it's love when you trust each other enough to close your eyes

and let your partner lead the way

wherever you go, whatever you do,

i always know, that deep within its here with me that you wish to be

and i trust u as much as i want u to trust me

as long as we both know, that i love you, and you love me

Love is when you understand each other, without even trying so hard to do so

u both have the same thoughts, the same brainwaves

we complete each other, you're my better half

we do have this so-called lover instinct

both are two different people, having so much similarities

we're soulmates indeed

my darling, do you know you're the most amazing boyfriend in the world?

whatever you do, whatever you say

always make me happy, make me smile, 

and make me fall for you over & over again

everyday is a new day for us

i am your greatest fan of all, and will always be, forever

I'm glad i'm yours & you're mine

I love you so much sayang

and i'll be with you through it all

hahaha...comel kan?

*wink2*