31/10/11

i didnt sleep the whole night, last-minute studying of course

got an hour of sleep at 5.30am, woke up at 6.30am

but i guess the 4 cups of coffee last night did a really good job in making me alert the whole day...huhu...seriously i dont feel tired at all, yet

its, 1pm already...and yes, i'm wide awake...not planning on taking a nap...xmengantuk buat ape nak paksa diri tido, buang mase guling2 je kan...

so we had our block exam just now...at 7.30am...

yes people, 7.30...di kala org tgh terkocoh2 kuar bilik pakai kasut semua...ktorg dah terduduk di dalam hall nk jwb exm...1 hour passed by quickly...

as predicted, the questions were all unpredictable...haha...biaq p la...haku da blajaq habih, dh soklan depa buat suma nak p jadi kelam jugak nk buat lagu mana...

pukul 8.30am soalan dikutip, semua org keluar dgn hati yg puas lara suka umm, lebih kpd blurrrrr...ade jugak rasa terkilan...sbb nasib xmenyebelahi kami...cume sesape yg pernah ter-google ke, ter-wiki ke, boleh la kot berharap cket2...mungkin jugak harapan tu bersinar sedikit dkt sesiapa yg memahami bahasa saintifik kasta tinggi...hahaha...yeah, we're just ordinary humble medic student...kurang sedikit nak bermain2 dgn bahasa atau tatabahasa bile smpai tang bab2 medic ni...let it be simple and clear...bru la berkesan...mungkin jugak ktorg belum lagi smpai ke tahap pakar utk membombastikkan bahasa sebegitu...umm, xde la bombastik mane...try bukak mane2 medical journal, and baca...ade la kot beberapa ayat yg mcm "daaaa, xperlu kot nak guna ayat gempak mcm tu...simple2 sudah...bende ni for public awareness...cemane org nk paham kalau sengaja mencari pasal mcm ni"...hahaha, tetibe da jadi sesi luahan perasaan xpuas hati...xpuas hati sbb bile baca journal smpai nak kene bukak kamus tebal...hoho...dah kamus medic gedabak dh, perlu ke nak kamus bahasa jugak...tang bahasa english tu xpe, no problem, tapi boleh x guna bahasa english sehari-harian...mungkin jugak bile nk publish tu perlu make sure ayat yg guna up2 cket, supaye ade standard kasta tinggi...haha...amboih alia, mengata sakan hang...xpe2, my blog kan, boleh je sesuka hati nk luahkan perasaan...luahan je ni...

okey, nak pegi class! lecture will be frm 2 till 5...then from 5.30 i've got extra class of islamic studies...for MQA sake...nak kene ade kelas agama yg valid dgn requirement dorg...baiklah, i dont mind at all...the class is extremely fun...dan ni bukan la perlian...tapi hakikat sebenar...i'm having such a wonderful time to learn about our religion...the class is so casual tht you can ask any type of questions tht pops up into ur mind...anything...and sebab ade 8 org je  so ktorgdiberi sepenuh perhatian...belajar agama perlu kaedah yg betul...supaya ilmu yg nak diberi sampai, komunikasi pun senang, perbincangan meluas...yg salah diperbetulkan, yg benar diajarkan...i love this class...everyone's cooperative, sharing ideas and knowledge...and bergurau2 sambil belajar...ustaz yg mengajar nampak mcm sgt berdedikasi & berilmu...seriously...best sgt class ni...org yg xperlu amik paper ni pun dtg jugak, utk mengisi masa dgn ilmu...i'm looking forward to it every week...extra 2 hours twice a week pun xpe...i'd attend wholeheartedly...

maka dgn itu, hari ni balik pkl 7.30 malam...yerr, pulang dpd kelas di waktu malam...keluar pagi balik mlm...terbaik la punye 12 jam belajar...bravo uh? xkira, mlm ni confirm KO awl! i still need my beauty sleep...huhu...bye!

study study study

true that

back again

dah lama sgt tinggal blog

just wanna say tht i'm back in Malaysia

life's been great

especially with him all along

♥ happy ♥

-xoxo-

Opick & Amanda - Maha Melihat ♥

i love this song :)

Seiring waktu berlalu tangis tawa di nafasku
Hitam putih di hidupku jalani takdirku
Tiada satu tersembunyi, tiada satu yang terlupa
Segala apa yang terjadi Engkaulah saksinya
*Kau yang Maha Mendengar
Kau yang Maha Melihat
Kau yang Maha Pemaaf
PadaMu hati bertobat
Kau yang Maha Pengasih
Kau yang Maha Pemyayang
Kau yang Maha Pelindung
PadaMu semua bergantung
Yang dicinta kan pergi
Yang didamba kan hilang
Hidup kan terus berjalan
Meski penih dengan tangisan
Andai bisa ku mengulang waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa ku kembali hapus semua pedih
Andai mungkin aku bisa, kembali ulang segalanya
Tapi hidup takkan bisa meski dengan air mata

Edcoustic - Sebiru Hari Ini ♥

for dearest friends left in Manipal and India

take care, and see u all again!

~sayonara~

*shanad, this song is specially for u...will miss u heaps gibu...xoxo!

study elok2, semoga dpt kita sama2 jadi dokter yg anggun cun melecun nanti (^_*)

Aeman - Buatmu Ibu ♥

for dearest mama

i love u

miss u alot mom

can't wait to go back

selamat berpuasa and hari raya mama

rindu :(

(dah la lagu sedih...ni yg nk nangis ni)

Rob Thomas - Little Wonder ♥

i really2 love this song :)

meet the robinson ost

Let it go

Let it roll right off your shoulder

Don't you know

The hardest part is over

Let it in

Let your clarity define you

In the end

We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made

In these small hours

These little wonders

These twists and turns of fate

Time falls away,

But these small hours

These small hours

Still remain

Let it slide

Let your troubles fall behind you

Let it shine,

Till you feel it all around you

And I don't mind

If it's me you need to turn to

We'll get by

It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made

In these small hours

These little wonders

These twists and turns of fate

Time falls away

But these small hours

These small hours

Still remain

All of my regret

Will wash away somehow

But I cannot forget

the way I feel right now

In these small hours

These little wonders

These twists and turns of fate

Yeah, these twisted turns of fate

Time falls away

Yeah, but these small hours,

These small hours

Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain

These little wonders

All these twists and turns of fate

Time falls away

But these small hours

These little wonders

Still remain

♥

Opick & Melly Goeslaw - Takdir ♥

another lagu berhantu...huhuhu...

dok terngiang2 sepanjang minggu

Dihempas gelombang dilemparkan angin
Sekisah ku bersedih ku bahagia
Di indah dunia yang berakhir sunyi
Langkah kaki di dalam rencana Nya

Semua berjalan dalam kehendak Nya
Nafas hidunp cinta dan segalanya

Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi

Bila mungkin ada luka coba tersenyumlah
Bila mungkin tawa coba bersabarlah
Karena air mata tak abadi
Akan hilang dan berganti (hilang kan berganti)

Bila mungkin hidup hampa dirasa
Mungkinkan hati rindukan Dia
Karena hanya dengan Nya hati tenang
Damai jiwa dan raga

Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi

♥

Maher Zain - Baraka Allahu Lakuma ♥

kawen nanti nk pasang lagu ni

aaawwwww ♥

~barakallah~

a productive sunday :)

woke up early today...but since the cold weather outside turned this room into a perfect place for hibernation, i chose to snuggle inside the warmth of my purple silk comforter instead...*heaven*
actually, i was planning to fast today ganti puase again but didnt make it due to several reasons...

• first, i dah puase smlm...
• second, buka puase smlm i mkn maggi je sbb xteringin ape2, i mengidam sayur hijau but india ni amatlah kekurangan sayur berwarna hijau...
• third, tht was the last time i ate, sebungkus maggi...
• fourth, smlm disebabkan bende yg same i nearly had gastritis, only tht the day before i had a complete meal of rice and all, but i had them earlier, at 5pm after class, so mungkin arini kalau puase jugak bakal menjadi lebih teruk...
• fifth, cik abang dah marah sbb nk puase dgn keadaan sebegini...
• sixth, beliau berkompromi nak berpuase same2 dgn i esok...haha...puase dari jauh :) 

maka dgn itu OK lah...
oleh itu, i telah merajinkan diri memasak nasi lemak utk diri sendiri dan rakan2 serumah tersayang...nasi lemak campak...haha...kerana semuanya disiapkan dlm masa 30 mins je...oleh cik alia sorg...mmg version fast and furious...hohoho...siaplah nasi lemak, sambal ayam, ikan bilis and telur...complete...nyum2...

hari ini jugak telah habis 3 round mencuci kain...hohoho...dnt blame me, blame the weather please...kain susah nk kering betul2...menyebabkan cik alia biarkan saje timbunan baju2 dlm laundry bag...tapi.secara kemas la, at least tidak bertaburan kan...haha...and hari ni kan hari rajin, hujan2 pun tetap nak basuh...maka kain ended up dijemur di living room under putaran kipas tertinggi (hahaha, bunyi mcm pelik)
petang pulak menghabiskan masa menstudykan diri...haha...ye, istilah menstudykan diri terpakse digunakan sbb jarang diri berkeinginan utk study...hanya masa2 tertentu seperti sekarang yg berasa takut utk menghadapi exm khamis ni, terus membawa ke arah buku dgn serta merta...nk sediakan payung la ni...kalau boleh biar sediakan skali dgn raincoat, kasut kalis air, beg kalis air, buku pun kalis air (dah dibalut dgn plastik), maka barulah boleh mendapat A...hehehe...

quote of the day:
knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens

Emily Browning - Sweet Dreams ♥

!!SALUTE!!

this chick rocks to the max!

kalau semua org lupe, mai nk bgtau...dier ni la yg jd lead actress in suckerpunch...yes yes, the cute blondie with dua tocang...fyi, she's the same age as me...23...mude lagi pelakon dan model, and now boleh nyanyi lg...disebabkan minah ni org aussie so xbrape kenal sgt, tgk suckerpunch bru tau...haha...btw, suara dier best la jugak...

I LOVE THIS SONG

awal2 tgk filem tu terus tertny2 "ni lagu ape ye? mcm best"

dan terus la ia menjadi berhantu2 utk beberapa hari...best jugak layan time emo2, di kala hujan renyai2 di luar mcm skrg...rasa mcm nak ke hulu ke hilir dalam rumah sambil jalan slow motion dgn muke zombie...hohoho...sungguh...

this would be my new zombie song people!

p/s: i love her skin...perfecto~ huhu

dreaming

angan-angan itu sungguh indah bukan

sayangnya ia bukan realiti

*sigh*

really wish it'd be

sudah2lah, xpayah nk mimpi2 lagi

buang mase je, xkan jadi pun

pegi celik2 kembali kt alam nyata

you're needed there

It's true

there're times when you feel extremely lonely

where no other presence matter

the only one that u missed the most is

ALLAH S.W.T

Astaghfirullahalazim 

ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku Ya Allah,

andai kejahilanku menjauhkan hatiku dariMu,

sungguh Ya Allah

hati terasa sunyi, sedih, sayu

diri bagaikan sendirian

hanya padaMu kusembah, dan padaMu kuminta pertolongan

berilah aku cahaya hidayahMu Ya Tuhan

kembalikanlah aku pada jalanMu Ya Tuhan

dekatkanlah diriku padaMu

kuatkanlah hatiku

amin

life is zero

kebelakangan ini

hidup betul2 terasa kosong

dunia berlalu mengikut lumrah

masa berjalan mcm biasa

nothing had changed

semua sama saja

pagi ptg malam

rutin harian, mingguan, bulanan

i have everything i need

but why am i still feeling at lost

i have everyone i need

but why am i still feeling lonely

maybe i should stop figuring out the reasons

i should stop whining about all this

keep it inside, be silent

and just live life, as what it is

life's always pathetically miserable, deal with it!

bosan la dok membebel bende2 same je...

ingat org kisah ke...diam sudah...

*emo balik*

this is how i feel...pening...dan penat kan...

depression is hitting me again

*sigh*

kemas brg :)

insyaallah

5 more weeks to go!

hehe, guna gmbr kotak2 coklet ni sbb nk tunjuk la dok tgh menyumbat kemas2 brg...

i can't wait to go back!!! ♥

Juanes : A Dios Le Pido (I Ask God) ♥

Me encanta la música latina

permite la rumba y la salsa

hehehe ♥

That my eyes wake up every day with the light of your look, I ask to God
That my mother will not die and that my dad remembers me, I ask to God
That you stay by my side and that you never leave from my life, I ask to God
That my soul never rests when it is about loving you my dear, I ask to God
For all the days that remain and the nights that haven't arrived, I ask to God
For the children of my children and the children of your children, I ask to God
That my country doesn't spill so much blood and my people will rise, I ask to God
That my soul never rests when it is about loving you my love, I ask to God
One more second of life to give you and to stay forever by your side
One more second of life to give you and my entire heart to give you
One more second of life, I ask to God
And that if I die will be because of love and that if I fall in love it will be with you
And that your voice will be this heart, everyday I ask to God
And that if I die will be of this love and that if I fall in love well be with you
And that your voice will be this heart everyday, I ask to God, I ask to God

*ahahahaha, agk serabut translation ni kn...i guess bahasa dorg mmg tunggang terbalik so jenuh org dok tafsir amende dier maksudkan...ade la tu msg2 dorg...huuu~...wutever it is, music dier best ;) adios~
*gelek2 salsa*

solatlah

i was youtube-ing randomly just now, but god's will, i encountered this inspiring clip about how important to pray...before it's too late...before it's the end of ur time...

innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun

ikhtibar for today

janganlah kita lengah-lengahkan sembahyang

kerana ajal itu tidak lebih dan tidak kurang sesaat pun dari ketentuan Allah

i need some good laugh...pronto!

-with these, you can see that OBG mode remains-

Lets LOL!

alone again

still

i'm feeling lonely

in the middle of millions

:(

alone

i'm so sad right now

and i got no one to talk to

:(

Christina Perri : Jar Of Hearts ♥

I know I can't take one more step towards you

'Cause all that's waiting is regret

And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?

You lost the love I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive 

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

ENCIK MOHD FAHMI RADZUAN

7/7/2011

HAPPY 1 YEAR SAYANG

i love u so much

♥

miss u

dear love

i miss u all the time

even now

OBG posting!

-if only baby is delivered easily like this-

currently i'm still in Obstetric & Gynaecology (OBG) posting...setiap hari pegi hosp belajar pasal wanita dan ibu2, dan semua proses yg berkenaan termasuklah pregnancy and labour...so far i've witnessed caesarean section, normal vaginal delivery, tubectomy...walaupun penat kaki berdiri, but xkisah lah...pengalaman yg dpt sgt bermakna...like today, we had to stand up for total of 4 hours in the operation theatre as well as labour theatre...plus with 3 classes today with an hour of each...tambah lagi i puase arini (bru kalut nk puase ganti kan...hohoh) penat sgt!!! 


dah tu bukan je dok relax berdiri, ingat main sesuka hati tgk ke...smbil2 tu dok kene tanya soalan2 dpd dokter2...berdebar je...right now, bile da smpai umah, i'm mentally and physically exhausted...but what to do, nk kene baca cket2 lagi...sbb esok masih ader class, with the same routine, classes and posting...and ikut nasib la ader case ape for the day kan...apepun, i really respect OBG doctors...they have a wide scope of jobs to do...mula dgn merawat wanita2 dari umur start period smpai tua lepas menopause...then ader pulak part family planning, infertility treatment, contraception...consultation and creating awareness...pastu ader pulak nk kene monitor mother's and baby's progress...nk kene check ubat2 sesuai ke x utk pregnant women, nk kene bg pill2 and vitamins yg sepatutnye, nk kene buat ultrasound check keadaan baby pulak...nk kene control ape2 penyakit ibu2 mengandung, semua bende xboleh pandang ringan...silap sikit je, 2 nyawa yg terlibat...and then nk kene predict keadaan ibu and baby time nk beranak nanti...nk kene tolong sambut baby...buat operations jugak : caesarean section, ikat fallopian tube utk yg nk control pregnancy...ape2 jenis tumour/ketumbuhan dorg jugak la nk detect...mainly covers it all...consultation, treatment, prevention, and surgery...nice~ tidak dilupakan jugak byk sungguh bende nk kene bace and hafal utk OBG!!! nehiiiiii!!!

p/s: vaginal delivery is seriously traumatic...bukan nk mentakutkan semua org...but it's really scary...especially from the eyes of an amature medical student like me...melihat setiap detik itu sungguh mendebarkan...i wonder how it actually feels...haha...nanti2 beberape tahun lagi ye...wooooooo~ xnakkkk...cuak darah kuar byk giler!!!~ like massive menses...dgn maknye dok jerit2 mintak tolong sbb sakit sgt...kesian...xdpt nk tolong byk sgt...it depends on her...yg scary sbb bile sakit tu yg kene push...haih, bile xsakit kene relax...apepun, i salute all mothers in the world for having such strong will to push out the babies from their womb, after 9 months of sufferings difficulty...huhu...but trust me, once the baby's head is out, walaupun separuh lagi belum kuar, bile dier bukak mata and mula bernafas, it's a total miracle...a cute little innocent being is out from the belly to see the world from the first time...terharu ok... :) terus ibunya nampak kelegaan...nk kuarkan placenta pun dah kurang jeritnya, and bile kene jahit pun mmg nampak la dorg sedaya upaya tahan...i bet in their minds are just towards the baby, nk jumpe and pegang baby cepat2...nk cakap2 dgn baby...awwwwww~ best sgt! nak jugakkkkk...haha...tetibe nk baby balik! tadi dok tkt2 sgt kan....lol

Star Parents

i was extremely bored and unable to make myself entering the lalaland...so i ended up in people.com magazine site...enjoying all the dramas within the news & pictures of the life's of celebrities...hehe...looking at these pictures made you realize that they're normal too, especially when it comes to family...and ur heart will go total awwwwwwed - overly adorable... ♥

Aren't they adorable?

♥

random

tiada benda dlm dunia ini adalah pasti

hanya Allah yg tahu

jangan bersedih, andai hatimu inginkan suatu yg tidak dapat

jangan bersedih, andai apa2 milikmu makin hilang dari pandangan

jangan bersedih, andai yg di kelilingmu penuh dgn kekosongan

hanya Allah yg tahu

mungkin itu adalah yg terbaik

mungkin juga kadang2 kamu memandang orang dan bukan dirimu sendiri

bersyukurlah dgn apa yg ada

mungkin itu yg selayak dirimu terima

be happy always, no matter what happens

you'd never know how many who wished they're in your shoe

transformers 3

arini kuar p mangalore bersama kwn2...watched transformers 3...unfortunately, it was my bad tht i dozed off few times during the movie...hohoho...kurang kick sikit bile dh smpai kt third movie ni...it was full of actions...god knows how much, and it was fun...but having too much transformers action sometimes can be bad...naik bosan...jalan cerita yg simple tapi xbrape elaborated...nampak sgt just nk buat sequel...i pulak jenis yg pentingkan storyline...sorry la, tertido hampir 40% while watching the movie...haha...apparently not just me, most of my friends complained the same thing...haihhh, xpelah, nanti bebile rajin buat movie marathon sendiri...i bet watching the movie from the first one would be more interesting rather than watching it alone...

and yes, another reason why it has lost its touch is because i think Shia LaBeouf is wayyyyy wayyyyyyy better with megan fox...hohoho...nasib la kan sape suh cari gaduh dgn director kan...if she's still there, boleh la mencuci mata (pompuan pun same naik drool dgn kesexyan beliau kot...hahaha...) last2 kene ganti dgn awek bru ni...yg err, comel jugak tapi xleh lwn musang itu walaupun dier model victoria secret...huhu...she's trying hard to look sexy, while megan is naturally sexy in personality i guess...

saje nk banding2...lol
the rosie and the megan
the blonde vs the brunette

 

bollywood style~

i just came back from our college supremo ball with the theme of bollywood...nice right...each and every person came with their own bollywood attire...culture shock weyh...all the sarees, salwar, lehenga/ghagra...cantik sgt...and the event was a blast...never thought this event rocks big time...everyone had a great great time! :) sadly this would be my first and last time to attend it...didnt had the chance to go last few years (which u people in mmmc knws why, ader org dok distribute sms suruh jgn pegi bla bla blahhh) anyway, it was nice to see everyone having so much fun...tidak keterlaluan kalau nk ckp skrg dh rase syg nk tinggal manipal...i'm looking forward to go back, but the thought of leaving this place with vast memories of 3 years here would still be a difficult one...i wish manipal would be better in the future, selamat dan lebih canggih...mane tahu lebih byk kedai2 mkn sedap2 nk bukak, even better if there would be a mall with a cinema...pls pls pls make it happen...haha...padahal bukannye nk duduk cni dh kan...haha...

let's get to know indian clothing!

saree

salwar

lehenga/ghagra

kurta

dhoti

lagu berhantu :D NE!!! Asfan - Terhenti Di Sini

♥ ♥ ♥

Sedangku membaca wajahmu
Senyumanmu menggambarkan sesuatu
Jika kau fahami isi hatiku
Ku tak ingin waktu henti tanpamu

Dirimu menyalahkan sebuah erti
Tapi diriku masih terhenti di sini

Dan jalanku masih belum dapat ku pasti
Namun diriku masih terhenti di sini

Andai kau dapat memahami
Bahawa ku menangung semua ini
Bukan niatku ingin kau pergi
kerna ku masih terhenti di sini

Dirimu menyalahkan sebuah erti
Tapi diriku masih terhenti di sini
Dan jalanku masih belum dapat ku pasti
Namun diriku masih terhenti di sini

Tiada daya untuk ku lakukannya
Kau tiba, di waktu ku masih punyai cinta
Tiada daya untuk ku lakukannya
Kau tiba, di waktu ku masih punyai cinta

Dirimu menyalahkan sebuah erti
Tapi diriku masih terhenti di sini
Dan jalanku masih belum dapat ku pasti
Namun diriku masih terhenti di sini

Tiada daya untuk ku lakukannya
Kau tiba, di waktu ku masih punyai cinta
Tiada daya untuk ku lakukannya
Kau tiba, di waktu ku masih punyai cinta

drama oh drama

-NORA ELENA-

minggu ni a.k.a malam rabu aritu to be exact, after habis paediatric end posting exam, bru la i ader mase nk tgk nora elena...selama ni dok tgk org post2 psl citer ni...i felt kinda jealous sbb xdpt nk join demam NE beramai2...haha...so strt la tgk rabu lepas, tgk2 menjadi addicted bagaikan membaca novel (owh, i mmg hantu novel cinta...guling2 version okeyh) disebabkan terlalu taksub dgn citer tu, i dgn relanye terpakse skip morning class sbb nk tido...haha...slept at 6.30am tau x...punye nk tgk citer ni marathon...lepas satu terus smbung lagi...smgt...

comment cik alia about this drama : 

*jerit gedik2 smbil kuar kepak terbang2 and mata ader love2*

owh, da lame sgt xkene penangan kisah cinta melayu version "citer tipu2 yg sungguh menguji jiwa raga sehingga terbit segala kehepian dan kemurkaan atau kesayuan serta kekecutan hati" a.k.a novel...hohoho...benar...sudah lame xtgk citer smpai terjadi adegan malu2 kucing sehinggakan masuk dalam bantal seketika gara2 mengelakkan dpd terkantoi senyum sorg2...hohoho...kisah benar ini...

tgk dpd comment2 org, ramai yg dok gilakan seth tan tu...for now, including me...lol...demam setan...wohoooo...mengapa? meh nk bg 5 sebab dgn pantas dan random...haha...extreme...

1) beliau seorg yg kacak...huuuuu..dgn pandangan mata mcm elvis ala2 mata sayu membuatkan dia sungguh comel dan innocent...alalahai~

2) mempunyai body yg mildly tegap bagaikan bodyguard/bouncer...woohooo...nampak mcm kuat, siap boleh dukung2 bini...lol...kalau jln sebelah pun terase selamat je...yg penting, sedap dipeluk~ mcm teddy2...hahaha...

3) dier menjadi lovey dovey dgn elena sorg saje...owh, lelaki yg jual mahal dkt pompuan sgt tempting tau x...an exclusive guy...(seth ni, walaupun dier dok berkepit2 dgn yvonne, but xlayan2 sgt...mcm tu pun, though i dont like it, jadi la kan...ye ke? haha, citer je kot...nk buat drama...) maka kesimpulannya, lelaki yg kejar ko sorg tu la yg terbaik utk kamu wahai wanita2...try check tgk kot2 dier dok kejar few babes, skali ko yg suke so dier pilih ko...huuuuuu~ sadis~ ade ke mcm tu? siot je...haha...xdelah, kalau seorang lelaki itu seikhlas hati menyayangi dirimu wahai wanita, sungguh dia xkn pandang perempuan lain...buat ape pun fikir selalu...bertuah kan kalau dpt lelaki mcm ni...

4) he remembered what she loves...fresh flowers...and bought tht just to cheer her up...sweet sgt bukan...siap tolong masak...tolong jaga time sakit...dok risau penat pegi balik keje...mmg kene layan mcm tuan puteri...best sgt kot...being treated like a princess, by a prince...sometimes it's not really how much the things cost, but the fact tht he's trying his best tht counts so much...cair hati~ nk nangis terharu~

5) he tried his best to be a better man...a better muslim...cuba utk menjadi yg terbaik buat elena...ader org mempertikaikan psl citer ni, laki tu perogol and xsmyg and pernah minum arak semua, kecik2 dok kwn dgn budak2 jahat...bad guy habis...but still, pengajaran citer ni nk tunjuk la bahawa the present him is more important...mmg la ni sekadar cerita je, but sungguh sejuk hati kalau dpt lelaki yg makin soleh dan berilmu...dan bukannya yg makin terpesong dan tersesat..."everyone deserves second chance" sgt betul...

akan tetapi...byk juga part cerita ni yg tidak logik...hahaha...nk komen and komplen sat...

1) beliau adalah bekas perogol...anyway, pertama skali aku mmg anti dgn laki yg xtau nk hormat pompuan...zina and rogol dh tentu dosa, tu segi agama...but morally, raping a woman tu sgt extreme la...lelaki seharusnya mengorat2 la dulu, at least ayat2 la sikit, lovey dovey dulu, biar berlaku secara suka rela...kalau nk paksa2 ni, even tgh umur budak kecik skolah2 nk rape org mmg bukan alasan la...bukannye raba2, terus rape kot...teruk sgt la tu...kalau dpd kecik xreti nk tau jaga maruah pompuan...bile dh tua ape lagi kan...tipu giler la kalau nk turn up jadi soleh sweet mcm seth...i bet dpd kecik da gile rogol org, smpai ke tua nak cuba lagi bukan...kalau minah tu da pindah pi kampung lain, for sure ader pompuan lain akan jadi mangsa lepas tu...look around people...and u'll knw that this is true...btw, bab sejahat2 si amir yg last2 jadi inspector tu maybe betul...and tht's inspiring...but bab seth perogol ni, agak tidak logik di situ...

2) sebab kewangan pun ader...sungguh melebih2 watak lelaki ni...sememangnya xde wujud dlm dunia ni la...kene kerugian 2 juta pun relek je...hahaha, tipu giler...patut da menggelabah dh...risau2 cemane cope with that...yela, walaupun sbb nk selamatkan org lain...tapi xde la smpai xkisah kene rugi mcm tu skali kan...tapi mungkin jugak dlm percentage duit dier, 2 juta tu bagaikan 2% je...maka logiklah tidak runsing jika kehilangan sebanyak itu...then kononnye mamat single kacak mcm ni masih xde calon2 di keliling...single habis...mestilah ramai yg dok nk ngorat...ni balik2 muke yvonne je...bosan kot...ader company pun dok spend time dgn collegues je main bowling, mcm xde kawan lain...mane pegi ntah kawan cina yg dok ber"party" dulu skali dgn yvonne2...hilang dh...

3) si kaye mcm ni nk bertunang pun ajak driver je pegi jadi wakil...see, told u dia xde relative/kawan lain...arwah mak dier tu bukan melayu ke...mane hilang makcik pakcik sedara mara...mmg da lame sgt kot xbergaul dgn org melayu...duit hantaran boleh bg smpai rm50000 tapi kawen kt kampung secara koboi pun xpe xkisah...tipu tipu tipu!! haha...patutnye dier pun dok kalut nk buat wedding grand pulak...ajak kwn2 dier, business partner ke...paling kurang ajak kawan2 tu pegi wedding belah pompuan...ni ader less than 10 je yg pegi...mmg la ader buat party kt umah, but tu da lepas 6 bulan kot...lame sgt...xlogik la...cine bukan lagi meriah ke bab2 kawen ni...kot sbb kawen pakse kot, tht's why...haha

4) tipu sgtttttt jugakkkkk kalau dier cinta elena dpd kecik smpai tua ni...xdpt nk kwn dgn org lain sbb dok cari elena...firstly, he's a freak...sbb ade bilik "khas" hanya utk melampiaskan "kerinduan" terhadap elena...agak scary bile dgr bilik tu xde sape boleh masuk...sbb rupe2nye dlm bilik tu ader gmbr elena termasuk rantai elena yg pernah tercabut selepas die merogol elena dulu2...eeeeewwww, scary x? bila tgk keadaan dia time kt dlm bilik tu, i mean, kejap2 nk masuk bilik tu, dah kahwin pun nak jugak masuk bilik tu...medically, and psychologically...i'd say tht you're a major problem dude...nasib baik hang xpulak melenting kegilaan bila terkantoi dgn elena kan...kot2 la bile dh malu sgt pegi amok and hurt anyone who knows the secret...hohoho....terus tukar jadi drama seram...terus seth tan menjadi mimpi ngeri gadis2 di luar sane, xjadi nk angau...perogol + pembunuh bersiri...freaky weyyy...

5) tipu kalau ckp dier kejar elena sbb tahu elena la gadis yg dicintai...tipu tipu tipu...hanya sbb terlanggar kt cafe, bru dier nampak rupe2nye minah yg dier penah rogol dulu, bertukar dpd makcikminah kampung yg serabai pakai tudung berbaju kurung pakai spek nek beskal xde mekap, mungkin jugak hanya bau bedak johnson baby je,...berubah menjadi awek hot yg rmbut hitam panjang dan muka cantik sgt serta pakai baju sexy2, siap mekap lawa2, mungkin jugak berbau wangi dek semburan perfume sedap2...hahaha...logik x kalau i ckp dier dok kejar elena sbb tgk2 elena dah jadi culture shock sehingga berubah menjadi gadis bandar yg sgt lawa mencapai taste dier...woot wooooot~ haruslah timbul rasa bertanggungjawab utk dijadikan isteri kan...hahaha...so dier buat2 innocent nk hantar amik elena, siap send the fiancee' away for few times sbb nk curi mase spend time dgn elena...elele, ingat org xnampak ke...bile balik kampung nk hantar elena, nk amik ati mak bapak elena...and then cepat2 offer diri nk gantikan tmpt tunang tu...nampak sgt kot...haha...go for it dude! kejar jgn xkejar! haha

ok, tu je nk membebel...now nk smbung tgk lagi citer tu...2nd round...like i said...suke tapi xsuke punye cerita...apepun, i pun dok terbang2 jugak tgk citer ni...haha...dlm dok kutuk ckp xlogik bagai kan...hohoho...i suke ok citer ni...novel adaptation...nice~

(btw, td da download dh lagu2 ost nora elena, siap copy lyrics okeyh...hahaha...layan sgt la lagu dier...sedih je...tiba...tiba...kini kau da berubah, apakah salahku~ lalala~)

haha, nakal sgt kan...comel je...angau sgt~ lalala~

tibe2 aaron aziz menjadi lelaki idaman semalaya

detik hati

i came back for lunch today...as usual...drawed out some money from the atm machine...went to a grocery shop to top-up my phone, bought some mango lassi nyum2~ this would be my lunch for the day...heavy lunch isn't an option, i have to go back to the hosp for evening class...if i'm lucky, we'd be called to the operation theatre or labour theatre to observe any cases or delivery...owh, i'm in OBG department now...today's the second day...so much to learn, so much to see, but nothing much to do...everyone's busy...so observation is the best learning method for now...even the lecturers taught us by sitting in a group, either in the class at the hosp or even like just now, class was conducted in the changing room...haha...nice~ with everyone wearing the surgeon scrubs, comel sgt! haha...semua muka excited, first time dpt pakai scrub...lol...

anyway, right now...i tgh dok lipat baju, smbil dengar lagu...bertimbun2 baju xlipat lagi...with the monsoon season around, baju lambat sgt nk kering...tambah lagi kene posting and all, dont have much time to fold them...so now, terpakse gagahkan diri lipat baju (haha, mcm susah sgt je) actually today owner rumah nk dtg inspect the house...makcik tu garang...mcm emak2 kecoh with saree and sanggul...haha...like mothers...kene la layan elok2...xnk la increase her BP kan...xpasal2 dok stress...xnk cari pasal...jamu air nanti...rumah kemas, (baju pun tersimpan elok...xde la nampak bundles of clothes on my bed kan...lol) 

sedang melipat kain, tangan juga sempat lg browse2 internet, blog walking...and then i came across a blog of a young woman, with the same age of mine, a medical student also, was recently diagnosed with ovarian cancer, she wrote about her experience for chemotherapy...it was very inspiring, her strong will to fight the disease is just amazing...its true that in order to overcome cancer, survival chances depend alot on the patient's positive thinking, the determination that will bring him/her to attend all the tiring treatment, to face all the difficult days, to handle enormous mixed feelings...

i doakan beliau tabah dan sabar utk lalui hari2 yg akan dtg...kesusahan itu dtg dari Allah, kesenangan itu pun dtg dari Allah...semoga Allah permudahkan jalan perjuangan beliau utk melawan penyakit itu...muda lagi, cantik, bijak pandai...sungguh, hidup ini mcm2 benda boleh berlaku...bila2 masa sahaja impian dan kebahagiaan akan ditarik...ujian hidup itu akan dtg berkali2, dgn berbagai2 cara...mungkin ini cara Allah menduga beliau, semoga keadaan ini dpt meningkatkan lagi keimanan beliau...semoga dosa terhapus, pahala kerana bersabar itu bertambah berganda2 lagi...amin...

btw, tadi pagi belajar Palliative Medicine...about how to handle a cancer patient...starting from breaking the news, responding to emotional patient, confidentiality...mcm2...dlm hati, i terfikir...sejauh mane pun seorang tu belajar, but it must be way difficult to handle for real...hrp2 dpt la jadi doktor yg boleh membantu pesakit2 dia...bantu bukan saja dari segi dok prescribe ubat je (ubt pun kene la bagi yg betul kan...), hopefully i can help them physically and emotionally...give support and help as much as i can...hopefully i'll see each patient as human beings, hopefully dpt bantu dorg sama mcm bantu keluarga or kawan2 sendiri...yes people, sometimes bila dah terlalu "biasa" sgt dgn situation tu, seseorang mungkin jadi lupa diri...kesakitan dan kematian itu mungkin boleh jadi perkara biasa sampai xtimbul dalam hati apa perasaan pesakit ataupun keluarga mereka...we might treat them as "just people" instead of a person with feelings...nauzubillah...jauhkanlah diriku dari berperasaan sebegitu...

klah, nk smbung lipat kain...sekian...hehe...

encik syg!

Thank you for this 11 wonderful months,

and there's forever to go~

i love u

teringin

smlm tetibe mimpi pegi sini

tangkap2 gmbr

smbil mkn cotton candy....?

*sigh*

i really2 wanna go there

i'm already here in india

bila lagi nk tatap one of the wonders of the world

akan tetapi, dah xde org nk teman

tu la, cuti2 b4 asyik nk balik je

now sume org da pegi tgl aku sorg

nanti da balik malaysia, jgn hrp la nk dtg india lg kan

maka dgn itu da xde peluang dh

*mimpi jelah*kempunan sorg2*

post tanpa tujuan

   

skrg susah btl nk update blog...

xde mood...

malas...

xsempat...

not only my blog, semua bende tangguh2 je...

haihhhh, ape nk jadi alia...

dok buat ape setiap hari? random.

online x setiap hari? ye.

abis tu nape da lame xtulih2 cni? xde ilham.

tido pkl bpe? 12am.

study byk sgt ke? xjugak.

dok tgk movie dlm lappy ke? xjugak.

jadi dok buat ape? =.=' *xde jwpn*

feeling lifeless lately

btl2 xsbr nk balik malaysia

80 days!

Again...

the loneliness is haunting me...

...again...

who is to be blamed? no one

it's weird

u knw tht u're among millions here, yet u feel all alone...

it's weird

u knw u hv everyone around u, yet u feel none can be called

it's weird

u knw u hv so much in mind to burst out, yet no words came out

*depressive mode*

Journey towards the better ME, WE & US

Life isn't about Finding Yourself

Life is about Creating Yourself

it's never surprising when you see someone you knew before, becoming somebody stranger, somebody else...people change, as time goes by...no one stays the same, unless they were in deep coma for several years, and woke up being the same them...or maybe they were in brain degenerative state that might suppress their ability to move forward...or maybe they ended up in psych wards, being the younger version of them (but still this is some sort of changing too right? from normal to not...huhu) anyway, these are just plain examples or hypotheses why people won't change...not that i'm saying the people that don't change simply because they had some brain death or brain damaged...huhuhu...i'm just saying that most of us, will change...mostly and hopefully to be the better us...but sadly there are some who changed to be the worse them...

berubah ke arah kebaikan itu adalah sgt dituntut...amal maaruf nahi mungkar...heh, ayat ni xabis2 dok ulang jadi jawapan utk kertas agame dulu...melaksanakan tuntutan agama, meninggalkan yg dilarang...i bet each and one of us da hafal sgt dgn ayat ni...tapi jgnlah hafalan tinggal hafalan...sayang ilmu yang belajar tapi tak buat, tinggal berhabuk bersawang berulat memori hafalan tu...jangan kerana bila dah masuk kolej dan universiti, ataupun dah kerja, terus lupa ilmu2 kehidupan ini..."Islam is a way of life" amalkan dalam kehidupan...ilmu yang baik, simpan dan amalkanlah...ilmu yang menyesatkan, mintak2 dijauhkan...hmm, nasihat utk diriku jugak ni...kadang2 bila busy sangat, terlupa terleka semua ade...cuma kenelah cepat2 ingat...ajal maut tu bila2 sahaja...kalaulah kita ni nampak ader dateline ajal tu, konfem setiap masa terkocoh2 nak beramal ibadat...jangan harap la nak tgk tv dgr lagu2 dah...jangan harap la nak buat maksiat dah...jangan harap la nak buang masa lagi...for sure xnak buat apa2 dah selain mengumpul bekalan itu...

if only...cuma Allah tu Maha Penyayang...Dia xnk bagi kita semua stressed out, hidup melampaui norma kemampuan manusia...manusia ni makhluk yang sgt kompleks...yang diberi akal utk berfikir, diberi anggota badan yg cukup, tenaga, nikmat kesihatan, makanan, kekayaan...tapi manusia juga mudah dipengaruhi dgn tipu daya syaitan, tambah lagi dgn keinginan nafsu berbagai2...jadi betullah suruhan Allah itu, amar maaruf nahi mungkar...tidak disuruh solat tanpa henti 24jam sehari...cukuplah syarat 5 waktu solat wajib, andai ada lebih tenaga dan kudrat, dituntut utk melakukan ibadat2 sunat yang lain...tidaklah disuruh membalut diri dgn 10 lapis pakaian utk menutup aurat...cukuplah yang tidak jarang, labuh menutup aurat, dan selesa dipakai serta tidak menunjuk2...tidaklah disuruh makan daun2 sahaja setiap hari lantas makanan2 lain diharamkan...hanya makanan yang tidak halal sahaja dan arak yang diharamkan, tu pun dgn bukti kukuh bahawa makanan & minuman haram ini membawa kemudaratan...indah sungguh tuntutan agama...itupun ada yang melanggarnya...

why does this happen? mungkin mereka2 itu terlalu mengikut perasaan...mungkin mereka itu mudah mengalah dgn hasutan syaitan...mungkin mereka itu terkabur mata dgn kejahatan...sungguh, yang melalaikan itu sungguh indah dan mudah...

Al-Baqarah, ayat 43-46:

"Dan dirikanlah kamu akan sembahyang dan keluarkanlah zakat, dan rukuklah kamu semua bersama-sama org yg rukuk (berjemaah). Patutkah kamu menyuruh manusia membuat kebaikan sedangkan kamu lupa akan diri kamu sendiri, padahal kamu semua membaca kitab Allah, tidakkah kamu berakal? Dan mintalah pertolongan kepada Allah dengan jalan yg sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang, dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada org2 yg khusyuk. Iaitu mereka yg percayadengan yakin bahawa mereka akan menemui Tuhan mereka dan bahawa mereka akan kembali kepadaNya."

jangan takut utk berubah ke arah kebaikan...jangan takut utk memperbaiki diri...jangan takut utk tampil dgn pembaharuan...sesungguhnya yang paling bertuah adalah diri kita sendiri...biar seribu mata memandang rendah pada kita, tapi Allah Tuhan Yang Maha Esa itu lebih sayang pada kita...semoga diberikan keampunan, perlindungan, petunjuk hidayah dan kebahagiaan di dunia & di akhirat...pada siapa yang kita nak tunjuk kita berubah? ALLAH SWT...Allah Maha Mengetahui bukan...siapa yang berpura2 dan siapa yang ikhlas...sungguh xrugi...yang rugi besar adalah org2 disekelilingmu yang hanya melihat dan mentertawa...rugilah mereka, sesungguhnya dgn ada yang berubah antara mereka, tu adalah salah satu petunjuk dari Allah...sesiapa yang terdetik hati utk berubah bersama, jadi dialah antara org2 yang berfikir dan berakal...anyway, for me, if any of your so-called friends mempersendakan niat kita utk berubah, mentertawakan kita, tu tandanya mereka itu tidak layaklah menjadi kawan...setidak-tidaknya kalau xada niat nak berubah sama, janganlah merendah2kan org lain...kawan yang sejati akan membantu dan mendorong kita ke arah kebaikan...tinggal jelah "kawan2" tu, ataupun jauhkan diri...xrugi pun...suara2 yang sebegitulah bakal mendorong kita ke arah yang lebih menyesatkan...nauzubillah...diharapkan semua berpendirian tetap dan berhati2 memilih kawan...bukan disuruh utk membenci ataupun putuskan silaturrahim, tapi jauhkanlah diri...

Al-Baqarah, ayat 8-15:

"Dan di antara manusia ada yang berkata 'kami telah beriman kpd Allah dan hari akhirat' padahal mereka sebenarnya tidak beriman. Mereka hendak memperdayakan Allah dan org2 yg beriman padahal mereka sendiri yang memperdaya dirinya sendiri sedang mereka tidak menyedari. Dalam hati mereka terdapat penyakit syak & hasad dengki, maka Allah tambahkan lagi penyakit itu dan mereka pula akan memperoleh azab siksa yang tidak terperi sakitnya dengan sebab mereka berdusta & mendustakan kebenaran. Dan apabila dikatakan kepada mereka 'janganlah kamu membuat bencana & kerosakan di muka bumi ini' mereka menjawab 'sesungguhnya orang2 yg hanya membuat kebaikan'. Ketahuilah bahawa sesungguhnya mereka itulah org yg sebenar2nya membuat bencana & kerosakan, tetapi mereka tidak menyedarinya. Dan apabila dikatakan kepada mereka 'berimanlah kamu sebagaimana org2 beriman' mereka menjawab 'patutkah kami ini beriman sebagaimana berimannya org2 yg bodoh itu?. Ketahuilah sesungguhnya merekalah org2 yg bodoh tetapi mereka tidak mengetahui hakikat yg sebenar. Dan apabila mereka bertemu dgn org2 yg beriman, mereka berkata 'kami telah beriman' dan pabila mereka kembali kepada syaitan-syaitan mereka, mereka berkata pula 'sesungguhnya kami tetap bersama kamu sebenarnya kami hanya memperolok-olokkan org yg beriman'. Allah membalas dengan memperolok-olokkan mereka dan membiarkan mereka meraba-raba dalam kesesatan yg melampaui batas itu."

ada pula bila kawan berubah, mulalah nak mengungkit kesilapan beliau masa lalu...mungkin kawan tu nakal sikit ketika zaman2 remaja...mungkin juga jenis bergaul bebas dan sebagainya...tgk2 satu hari dah berubah, menutup aurat dan menjaga kelakuan sebaik mungkin...seharusnya kita happy tgk perubahan kawan tu dan membantu dia memperbaiki apa yg kurang...mentaliti masyarakat kita ada yang suka mengata dan memperlekeh org...cemburu ka? sakit hati? tercabar? begitukah umat Islam yg bersaudara? kasihanlah budak tu, andai nak berubah, baguslah...jangan pulak merendah-rendahkan dirinya...sapa tahu, yg dihina itulah yang terlebih dahulu diterima taubat oleh Allah, yang lebih banyak menangis menyesal sudah dgn kesilapan lalu, yang lebih banyak membuat kebajikan, yang lebih banyak belajar Al-Quran daripada kita, yang lebih dekat dirinya dgn Allah sekarang...janganlah kita lupa diri, riak, dan begitu bangga...selesa dgn tahap keimanan yg xseberapa itu pun...setiap org punya kelebihan dan kekurangan masing2...jangan judge dari luaran, ataupun jangan judge daripada fitnah gosip2 yg org lain cakap...baik diam kalau xtahu...hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui...yg penting pandang diri sendiri dulu...ukur diri sendiri...diharapkan yg pengakhirannya semua dapat masuk ke dalam syurga...no one wants to end up in hell...so why do we ask for it? kita tahu setiap kelakuan & niat akan dikira dosa pahala...semoga kita termasuk di antara yang beringat2 dan berjaya, dan bukan dalam golongan yang dimurkai Allah ataupun yg dalam kesesatan...aminnn...dan semoga kita bukanlah di antara golongan yg fasik, yg mengaku beriman tetapi sebenarnya tidak, ada di antara mereka yg tidak menyedarinya pun...nauzubillah... 

marilah kita berubah ke arah kebaikan

buat baik dibalas baik bukan?

jodoh yg baik pun milik org2 yg baik bukan?

pengakhiran yang baik (syurga) itu bagi org yg baik2 kan?

spread the love & happiness, faith & iman

mulakan dari diri kita sendiri, saat ini

semoga kata2 bukan tinggal kata2

semoga niat yg ikhlas ini, kekal dalam hati

insyaAllah

(^_^)

(yg baik itu semuanya dari Allah, yg serba kurang & silap tu dari saya sendiri)