31/10/11

i didnt sleep the whole night, last-minute studying of course

got an hour of sleep at 5.30am, woke up at 6.30am

but i guess the 4 cups of coffee last night did a really good job in making me alert the whole day...huhu...seriously i dont feel tired at all, yet

its, 1pm already...and yes, i'm wide awake...not planning on taking a nap...xmengantuk buat ape nak paksa diri tido, buang mase guling2 je kan...

so we had our block exam just now...at 7.30am...

yes people, 7.30...di kala org tgh terkocoh2 kuar bilik pakai kasut semua...ktorg dah terduduk di dalam hall nk jwb exm...1 hour passed by quickly...

as predicted, the questions were all unpredictable...haha...biaq p la...haku da blajaq habih, dh soklan depa buat suma nak p jadi kelam jugak nk buat lagu mana...

pukul 8.30am soalan dikutip, semua org keluar dgn hati yg puas lara suka umm, lebih kpd blurrrrr...ade jugak rasa terkilan...sbb nasib xmenyebelahi kami...cume sesape yg pernah ter-google ke, ter-wiki ke, boleh la kot berharap cket2...mungkin jugak harapan tu bersinar sedikit dkt sesiapa yg memahami bahasa saintifik kasta tinggi...hahaha...yeah, we're just ordinary humble medic student...kurang sedikit nak bermain2 dgn bahasa atau tatabahasa bile smpai tang bab2 medic ni...let it be simple and clear...bru la berkesan...mungkin jugak ktorg belum lagi smpai ke tahap pakar utk membombastikkan bahasa sebegitu...umm, xde la bombastik mane...try bukak mane2 medical journal, and baca...ade la kot beberapa ayat yg mcm "daaaa, xperlu kot nak guna ayat gempak mcm tu...simple2 sudah...bende ni for public awareness...cemane org nk paham kalau sengaja mencari pasal mcm ni"...hahaha, tetibe da jadi sesi luahan perasaan xpuas hati...xpuas hati sbb bile baca journal smpai nak kene bukak kamus tebal...hoho...dah kamus medic gedabak dh, perlu ke nak kamus bahasa jugak...tang bahasa english tu xpe, no problem, tapi boleh x guna bahasa english sehari-harian...mungkin jugak bile nk publish tu perlu make sure ayat yg guna up2 cket, supaye ade standard kasta tinggi...haha...amboih alia, mengata sakan hang...xpe2, my blog kan, boleh je sesuka hati nk luahkan perasaan...luahan je ni...

okey, nak pegi class! lecture will be frm 2 till 5...then from 5.30 i've got extra class of islamic studies...for MQA sake...nak kene ade kelas agama yg valid dgn requirement dorg...baiklah, i dont mind at all...the class is extremely fun...dan ni bukan la perlian...tapi hakikat sebenar...i'm having such a wonderful time to learn about our religion...the class is so casual tht you can ask any type of questions tht pops up into ur mind...anything...and sebab ade 8 org je  so ktorgdiberi sepenuh perhatian...belajar agama perlu kaedah yg betul...supaya ilmu yg nak diberi sampai, komunikasi pun senang, perbincangan meluas...yg salah diperbetulkan, yg benar diajarkan...i love this class...everyone's cooperative, sharing ideas and knowledge...and bergurau2 sambil belajar...ustaz yg mengajar nampak mcm sgt berdedikasi & berilmu...seriously...best sgt class ni...org yg xperlu amik paper ni pun dtg jugak, utk mengisi masa dgn ilmu...i'm looking forward to it every week...extra 2 hours twice a week pun xpe...i'd attend wholeheartedly...

maka dgn itu, hari ni balik pkl 7.30 malam...yerr, pulang dpd kelas di waktu malam...keluar pagi balik mlm...terbaik la punye 12 jam belajar...bravo uh? xkira, mlm ni confirm KO awl! i still need my beauty sleep...huhu...bye!

study study study

true that

back again

dah lama sgt tinggal blog

just wanna say tht i'm back in Malaysia

life's been great

especially with him all along

♥ happy ♥

-xoxo-

Opick & Amanda - Maha Melihat ♥

i love this song :)

Seiring waktu berlalu tangis tawa di nafasku
Hitam putih di hidupku jalani takdirku
Tiada satu tersembunyi, tiada satu yang terlupa
Segala apa yang terjadi Engkaulah saksinya
*Kau yang Maha Mendengar
Kau yang Maha Melihat
Kau yang Maha Pemaaf
PadaMu hati bertobat
Kau yang Maha Pengasih
Kau yang Maha Pemyayang
Kau yang Maha Pelindung
PadaMu semua bergantung
Yang dicinta kan pergi
Yang didamba kan hilang
Hidup kan terus berjalan
Meski penih dengan tangisan
Andai bisa ku mengulang waktu hilang dan terbuang
Andai bisa ku kembali hapus semua pedih
Andai mungkin aku bisa, kembali ulang segalanya
Tapi hidup takkan bisa meski dengan air mata

Edcoustic - Sebiru Hari Ini ♥

for dearest friends left in Manipal and India

take care, and see u all again!

~sayonara~

*shanad, this song is specially for u...will miss u heaps gibu...xoxo!

study elok2, semoga dpt kita sama2 jadi dokter yg anggun cun melecun nanti (^_*)

Aeman - Buatmu Ibu ♥

for dearest mama

i love u

miss u alot mom

can't wait to go back

selamat berpuasa and hari raya mama

rindu :(

(dah la lagu sedih...ni yg nk nangis ni)

Rob Thomas - Little Wonder ♥

i really2 love this song :)

meet the robinson ost

Let it go

Let it roll right off your shoulder

Don't you know

The hardest part is over

Let it in

Let your clarity define you

In the end

We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made

In these small hours

These little wonders

These twists and turns of fate

Time falls away,

But these small hours

These small hours

Still remain

Let it slide

Let your troubles fall behind you

Let it shine,

Till you feel it all around you

And I don't mind

If it's me you need to turn to

We'll get by

It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made

In these small hours

These little wonders

These twists and turns of fate

Time falls away

But these small hours

These small hours

Still remain

All of my regret

Will wash away somehow

But I cannot forget

the way I feel right now

In these small hours

These little wonders

These twists and turns of fate

Yeah, these twisted turns of fate

Time falls away

Yeah, but these small hours,

These small hours

Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain

These little wonders

All these twists and turns of fate

Time falls away

But these small hours

These little wonders

Still remain

♥

Opick & Melly Goeslaw - Takdir ♥

another lagu berhantu...huhuhu...

dok terngiang2 sepanjang minggu

Dihempas gelombang dilemparkan angin
Sekisah ku bersedih ku bahagia
Di indah dunia yang berakhir sunyi
Langkah kaki di dalam rencana Nya

Semua berjalan dalam kehendak Nya
Nafas hidunp cinta dan segalanya

Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi

Bila mungkin ada luka coba tersenyumlah
Bila mungkin tawa coba bersabarlah
Karena air mata tak abadi
Akan hilang dan berganti (hilang kan berganti)

Bila mungkin hidup hampa dirasa
Mungkinkan hati rindukan Dia
Karena hanya dengan Nya hati tenang
Damai jiwa dan raga

Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Dan tertakdir menjalani segala kehendak Mu Ya Robbi
Ku berserah ku berpasrah hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi
Hanya pada Mu Ya Robbi

♥

Maher Zain - Baraka Allahu Lakuma ♥

kawen nanti nk pasang lagu ni

aaawwwww ♥

~barakallah~

a productive sunday :)

woke up early today...but since the cold weather outside turned this room into a perfect place for hibernation, i chose to snuggle inside the warmth of my purple silk comforter instead...*heaven*
actually, i was planning to fast today ganti puase again but didnt make it due to several reasons...

• first, i dah puase smlm...
• second, buka puase smlm i mkn maggi je sbb xteringin ape2, i mengidam sayur hijau but india ni amatlah kekurangan sayur berwarna hijau...
• third, tht was the last time i ate, sebungkus maggi...
• fourth, smlm disebabkan bende yg same i nearly had gastritis, only tht the day before i had a complete meal of rice and all, but i had them earlier, at 5pm after class, so mungkin arini kalau puase jugak bakal menjadi lebih teruk...
• fifth, cik abang dah marah sbb nk puase dgn keadaan sebegini...
• sixth, beliau berkompromi nak berpuase same2 dgn i esok...haha...puase dari jauh :) 

maka dgn itu OK lah...
oleh itu, i telah merajinkan diri memasak nasi lemak utk diri sendiri dan rakan2 serumah tersayang...nasi lemak campak...haha...kerana semuanya disiapkan dlm masa 30 mins je...oleh cik alia sorg...mmg version fast and furious...hohoho...siaplah nasi lemak, sambal ayam, ikan bilis and telur...complete...nyum2...

hari ini jugak telah habis 3 round mencuci kain...hohoho...dnt blame me, blame the weather please...kain susah nk kering betul2...menyebabkan cik alia biarkan saje timbunan baju2 dlm laundry bag...tapi.secara kemas la, at least tidak bertaburan kan...haha...and hari ni kan hari rajin, hujan2 pun tetap nak basuh...maka kain ended up dijemur di living room under putaran kipas tertinggi (hahaha, bunyi mcm pelik)
petang pulak menghabiskan masa menstudykan diri...haha...ye, istilah menstudykan diri terpakse digunakan sbb jarang diri berkeinginan utk study...hanya masa2 tertentu seperti sekarang yg berasa takut utk menghadapi exm khamis ni, terus membawa ke arah buku dgn serta merta...nk sediakan payung la ni...kalau boleh biar sediakan skali dgn raincoat, kasut kalis air, beg kalis air, buku pun kalis air (dah dibalut dgn plastik), maka barulah boleh mendapat A...hehehe...

quote of the day:
knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens

Emily Browning - Sweet Dreams ♥

!!SALUTE!!

this chick rocks to the max!

kalau semua org lupe, mai nk bgtau...dier ni la yg jd lead actress in suckerpunch...yes yes, the cute blondie with dua tocang...fyi, she's the same age as me...23...mude lagi pelakon dan model, and now boleh nyanyi lg...disebabkan minah ni org aussie so xbrape kenal sgt, tgk suckerpunch bru tau...haha...btw, suara dier best la jugak...

I LOVE THIS SONG

awal2 tgk filem tu terus tertny2 "ni lagu ape ye? mcm best"

dan terus la ia menjadi berhantu2 utk beberapa hari...best jugak layan time emo2, di kala hujan renyai2 di luar mcm skrg...rasa mcm nak ke hulu ke hilir dalam rumah sambil jalan slow motion dgn muke zombie...hohoho...sungguh...

this would be my new zombie song people!

p/s: i love her skin...perfecto~ huhu

dreaming

angan-angan itu sungguh indah bukan

sayangnya ia bukan realiti

*sigh*

really wish it'd be

sudah2lah, xpayah nk mimpi2 lagi

buang mase je, xkan jadi pun

pegi celik2 kembali kt alam nyata

you're needed there

It's true

there're times when you feel extremely lonely

where no other presence matter

the only one that u missed the most is

ALLAH S.W.T

Astaghfirullahalazim 

ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku Ya Allah,

andai kejahilanku menjauhkan hatiku dariMu,

sungguh Ya Allah

hati terasa sunyi, sedih, sayu

diri bagaikan sendirian

hanya padaMu kusembah, dan padaMu kuminta pertolongan

berilah aku cahaya hidayahMu Ya Tuhan

kembalikanlah aku pada jalanMu Ya Tuhan

dekatkanlah diriku padaMu

kuatkanlah hatiku

amin

life is zero

kebelakangan ini

hidup betul2 terasa kosong

dunia berlalu mengikut lumrah

masa berjalan mcm biasa

nothing had changed

semua sama saja

pagi ptg malam

rutin harian, mingguan, bulanan

i have everything i need

but why am i still feeling at lost

i have everyone i need

but why am i still feeling lonely

maybe i should stop figuring out the reasons

i should stop whining about all this

keep it inside, be silent

and just live life, as what it is

life's always pathetically miserable, deal with it!

bosan la dok membebel bende2 same je...

ingat org kisah ke...diam sudah...

*emo balik*

this is how i feel...pening...dan penat kan...

depression is hitting me again

*sigh*

kemas brg :)

insyaallah

5 more weeks to go!

hehe, guna gmbr kotak2 coklet ni sbb nk tunjuk la dok tgh menyumbat kemas2 brg...

i can't wait to go back!!! ♥

Juanes : A Dios Le Pido (I Ask God) ♥

Me encanta la música latina

permite la rumba y la salsa

hehehe ♥

That my eyes wake up every day with the light of your look, I ask to God
That my mother will not die and that my dad remembers me, I ask to God
That you stay by my side and that you never leave from my life, I ask to God
That my soul never rests when it is about loving you my dear, I ask to God
For all the days that remain and the nights that haven't arrived, I ask to God
For the children of my children and the children of your children, I ask to God
That my country doesn't spill so much blood and my people will rise, I ask to God
That my soul never rests when it is about loving you my love, I ask to God
One more second of life to give you and to stay forever by your side
One more second of life to give you and my entire heart to give you
One more second of life, I ask to God
And that if I die will be because of love and that if I fall in love it will be with you
And that your voice will be this heart, everyday I ask to God
And that if I die will be of this love and that if I fall in love well be with you
And that your voice will be this heart everyday, I ask to God, I ask to God

*ahahahaha, agk serabut translation ni kn...i guess bahasa dorg mmg tunggang terbalik so jenuh org dok tafsir amende dier maksudkan...ade la tu msg2 dorg...huuu~...wutever it is, music dier best ;) adios~
*gelek2 salsa*

solatlah

i was youtube-ing randomly just now, but god's will, i encountered this inspiring clip about how important to pray...before it's too late...before it's the end of ur time...

innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun

ikhtibar for today

janganlah kita lengah-lengahkan sembahyang

kerana ajal itu tidak lebih dan tidak kurang sesaat pun dari ketentuan Allah

i need some good laugh...pronto!

-with these, you can see that OBG mode remains-

Lets LOL!

alone again

still

i'm feeling lonely

in the middle of millions

:(

alone

i'm so sad right now

and i got no one to talk to

:(