is STOP the right word?

studying medic is SO STRESSFUL...
...so much to do, so little time...

people get tense almost everyday...struggling to get through the lectures and absorbs the facts...and sadly, these hectic life never slows down...only that its getting worse...no wonder many of us feel bored or unmotivated after just 2 months here...IT NEVER ENDS...not to mention the ones who totally feel left out and trying so hard to catch up the syllabus...huh, i mean...things are never easy...gotta keep up the pace, otherwise you'll end up tangled on the road...and here's the worst part...once you stop hoping, stop dreaming, stop motivating yourself...you might have had a thought of STOP STUDYING...

well, so far luckily i don't have that kinda breakdown yet...yeah, life is stressful...but i kept on motivating myself, keep busy and try my best to be as happy as i can...life will never be easy, THAT'S A FACT...wherever you go, whatever you do, there's always challenges lies ahead...so here i would like to list out what are the things to be thought or shall i say points to ponder before giving up studying...it might change how you feel about life :)

• the most important thing is don't ever forget that God has plan for each and every of us...just go on with the flow...no matter what...sometimes what we want is not what we need...He knows best...maybe you'll feel rather depressed or surrounded by bad lucks...but i'm sure, if you managed to reach the end of the plan, you'll finally know why He let you come into this field...and you'll surely grateful for that...accept everything will an open heart, let yourself try to work on your destiny...don't have to turn the other way round...yes, you can if you really really really wanted to be in other place, but just remember He'll give you what you want, only that at the end it'll turn out to be worse...its always like that...talking about fate...

"I was once told that as time goes by
Everything changes with no reason why,
Explanations we won't receive
We're just told we must believe,
The full evidence I don't expect
Just some guidance down the right track,
Praying to You helps me to see
The wonderful journey You have for me,
Allah has a plan for each of us
This I Believe - This I Trust"

• 2ndly, think about your parents...i always do that...whatever i do, abah & mama will always be in my mind...what will they think, what will they feel, how will they react, which way will make them happier, which way will never let them down or which way will not burden them...they had sacrificed a lot...never in my life i'd want to make them sad...i always pray so that everything i do will get their bless, will make them happy, be proud of me...they always say to me and my siblings "we had given you everything you need...enough clothes, food, money, education...all we want is you to be the best...compare your life to ours, its so different...we were so much poorer back then, but we struggled hard and use all the things we have to gain success...this is what we finally have...so you should be better than us...so much better..." and so we will mom...don't worry...alia harap kami semua berjaya dengan cemerlang sampai akhirnya...demi mama & abah...kalau ader salah & silap, bukan salah mama atau abah, you both had done your best...i shall say the best parents ever...we all grow up to be full of love, laughter, responsible, motivated, diciplined, educated, faithful...rich in everything but still remain humble...that's us...right? :)

"My parents are the greatest, they raised me so strong,
They've loved me all my life, loved me so long.
They guide me through life, with all their leading love,
They're exactly like angels from up above.
Love can be wicked sometimes if it is not right,
They show me love by not letting me out of their sight.
Both of my parents play their own part,
In comforting me with all of their heart.
These two people are as kindred as could be,
I stick by them, they stick by me.
I want to tell you something as I depart,
...I love my parents with all of my heart..."

• 3rdly, think about your other family...your siblings...they must have had adore you so much...being the hope, the role-model, the star...i'm so lucky to have such bro n sis...we support each other...calm each others down, say good things (really good things :D)...praise when one had get the best, comfort if there's a drop in study...share ideas n thoughts...solve problems together...utk adik2, aya skrg study hard cni, korg pun kne blaja rajin2 jugak...get good results...adik2 kne ikut yg lebih tua...like we always said to mira "you gotta maintain the record, bru boleh setaraf dgn ktorg...haha" its true, that's why no matter what i shall strive hard...if things get more complicated, i'll strive harder...i'll show the meaning of survival to my siblings...so that when they are facing the same problem later on, at least they'll have some sort of strength like their sis...never give up...yeah!!

"When you look at your life the greatest happiness is family happiness"

• after that, think about your own...not happiness because trust me, till now i'm still confused with the things that could make me happy...you see, sometimes i'll be happy and sometime i'll be sad...well, life is like that after all...human are never contented...therefore, i'll just stick to my mind that this is the always the right thing to do...studystudystudy...i study for my future, my security, my confidence, my dignity...honestly, if you drop out now, its a BIG LOSS then...to a BIG BATTLE...waste of time, energy, and money...i'd rather study than think about all the stuff...giving up study, yeah for your own so-called-not-sure-yet happiness...i'm a fighter, who when there's a war given to me...i'd take the challenge because i know what lies ahead is so much better than what's in front...and it is a war, an individual war...where not the best man wins, but the survivor goes through...besides, i like the idea people calling me Dr.Alia already...haha...

"you might win a battle, but you lose a WAR"

• think about what your country would think...retain you pride...if you get through, you'll be embraced by all the malaysians...but if you quit, you'll certainly be enraged by them...no wonder, being in scholarship means that you are the hope of your country...people trusts you, giving out tax yearly...to support your study...and if you just quit, its such a waste...a HUGE WASTE...don't let people curse you, let yourself be a bless to all...be someone useful to your country, not burdening...fight for it...if not you, them who? nowadays we don't need to be always in military to show our patriotism spirit, but just be educated and end up having a noble job by helping out the country, its enough..

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail."

• When it comes to a career many are confused especially at your age. A career is a usually a lifelong choice whoever sometimes one changes their career status at same point in time. Always remember that what you do now will affect the rest of your life. Choose well. Think about the reasons you made the choice to become a doctor. If it was the money, or even the idea of helping others in a grand scale,you had a reason. Don't loose sight of yourself and what you feel about your choice...no matter what...never give up on your dream to do what you want to do...never let your studies go...never stop caring about others and never forget to be all you can! God has a plan for you seek His Will and you are going to be fine.
  

"It's not whether you get knocked down; it's whether you get up."

quote of the day:
"When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low, and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but do not quit
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things go wrong that you must not quit."