OBG posting!

-if only baby is delivered easily like this-

currently i'm still in Obstetric & Gynaecology (OBG) posting...setiap hari pegi hosp belajar pasal wanita dan ibu2, dan semua proses yg berkenaan termasuklah pregnancy and labour...so far i've witnessed caesarean section, normal vaginal delivery, tubectomy...walaupun penat kaki berdiri, but xkisah lah...pengalaman yg dpt sgt bermakna...like today, we had to stand up for total of 4 hours in the operation theatre as well as labour theatre...plus with 3 classes today with an hour of each...tambah lagi i puase arini (bru kalut nk puase ganti kan...hohoh) penat sgt!!! 


dah tu bukan je dok relax berdiri, ingat main sesuka hati tgk ke...smbil2 tu dok kene tanya soalan2 dpd dokter2...berdebar je...right now, bile da smpai umah, i'm mentally and physically exhausted...but what to do, nk kene baca cket2 lagi...sbb esok masih ader class, with the same routine, classes and posting...and ikut nasib la ader case ape for the day kan...apepun, i really respect OBG doctors...they have a wide scope of jobs to do...mula dgn merawat wanita2 dari umur start period smpai tua lepas menopause...then ader pulak part family planning, infertility treatment, contraception...consultation and creating awareness...pastu ader pulak nk kene monitor mother's and baby's progress...nk kene check ubat2 sesuai ke x utk pregnant women, nk kene bg pill2 and vitamins yg sepatutnye, nk kene buat ultrasound check keadaan baby pulak...nk kene control ape2 penyakit ibu2 mengandung, semua bende xboleh pandang ringan...silap sikit je, 2 nyawa yg terlibat...and then nk kene predict keadaan ibu and baby time nk beranak nanti...nk kene tolong sambut baby...buat operations jugak : caesarean section, ikat fallopian tube utk yg nk control pregnancy...ape2 jenis tumour/ketumbuhan dorg jugak la nk detect...mainly covers it all...consultation, treatment, prevention, and surgery...nice~ tidak dilupakan jugak byk sungguh bende nk kene bace and hafal utk OBG!!! nehiiiiii!!!

p/s: vaginal delivery is seriously traumatic...bukan nk mentakutkan semua org...but it's really scary...especially from the eyes of an amature medical student like me...melihat setiap detik itu sungguh mendebarkan...i wonder how it actually feels...haha...nanti2 beberape tahun lagi ye...wooooooo~ xnakkkk...cuak darah kuar byk giler!!!~ like massive menses...dgn maknye dok jerit2 mintak tolong sbb sakit sgt...kesian...xdpt nk tolong byk sgt...it depends on her...yg scary sbb bile sakit tu yg kene push...haih, bile xsakit kene relax...apepun, i salute all mothers in the world for having such strong will to push out the babies from their womb, after 9 months of sufferings difficulty...huhu...but trust me, once the baby's head is out, walaupun separuh lagi belum kuar, bile dier bukak mata and mula bernafas, it's a total miracle...a cute little innocent being is out from the belly to see the world from the first time...terharu ok... :) terus ibunya nampak kelegaan...nk kuarkan placenta pun dah kurang jeritnya, and bile kene jahit pun mmg nampak la dorg sedaya upaya tahan...i bet in their minds are just towards the baby, nk jumpe and pegang baby cepat2...nk cakap2 dgn baby...awwwwww~ best sgt! nak jugakkkkk...haha...tetibe nk baby balik! tadi dok tkt2 sgt kan....lol

detik hati

i came back for lunch today...as usual...drawed out some money from the atm machine...went to a grocery shop to top-up my phone, bought some mango lassi nyum2~ this would be my lunch for the day...heavy lunch isn't an option, i have to go back to the hosp for evening class...if i'm lucky, we'd be called to the operation theatre or labour theatre to observe any cases or delivery...owh, i'm in OBG department now...today's the second day...so much to learn, so much to see, but nothing much to do...everyone's busy...so observation is the best learning method for now...even the lecturers taught us by sitting in a group, either in the class at the hosp or even like just now, class was conducted in the changing room...haha...nice~ with everyone wearing the surgeon scrubs, comel sgt! haha...semua muka excited, first time dpt pakai scrub...lol...

anyway, right now...i tgh dok lipat baju, smbil dengar lagu...bertimbun2 baju xlipat lagi...with the monsoon season around, baju lambat sgt nk kering...tambah lagi kene posting and all, dont have much time to fold them...so now, terpakse gagahkan diri lipat baju (haha, mcm susah sgt je) actually today owner rumah nk dtg inspect the house...makcik tu garang...mcm emak2 kecoh with saree and sanggul...haha...like mothers...kene la layan elok2...xnk la increase her BP kan...xpasal2 dok stress...xnk cari pasal...jamu air nanti...rumah kemas, (baju pun tersimpan elok...xde la nampak bundles of clothes on my bed kan...lol) 

sedang melipat kain, tangan juga sempat lg browse2 internet, blog walking...and then i came across a blog of a young woman, with the same age of mine, a medical student also, was recently diagnosed with ovarian cancer, she wrote about her experience for chemotherapy...it was very inspiring, her strong will to fight the disease is just amazing...its true that in order to overcome cancer, survival chances depend alot on the patient's positive thinking, the determination that will bring him/her to attend all the tiring treatment, to face all the difficult days, to handle enormous mixed feelings...

i doakan beliau tabah dan sabar utk lalui hari2 yg akan dtg...kesusahan itu dtg dari Allah, kesenangan itu pun dtg dari Allah...semoga Allah permudahkan jalan perjuangan beliau utk melawan penyakit itu...muda lagi, cantik, bijak pandai...sungguh, hidup ini mcm2 benda boleh berlaku...bila2 masa sahaja impian dan kebahagiaan akan ditarik...ujian hidup itu akan dtg berkali2, dgn berbagai2 cara...mungkin ini cara Allah menduga beliau, semoga keadaan ini dpt meningkatkan lagi keimanan beliau...semoga dosa terhapus, pahala kerana bersabar itu bertambah berganda2 lagi...amin...

btw, tadi pagi belajar Palliative Medicine...about how to handle a cancer patient...starting from breaking the news, responding to emotional patient, confidentiality...mcm2...dlm hati, i terfikir...sejauh mane pun seorang tu belajar, but it must be way difficult to handle for real...hrp2 dpt la jadi doktor yg boleh membantu pesakit2 dia...bantu bukan saja dari segi dok prescribe ubat je (ubt pun kene la bagi yg betul kan...), hopefully i can help them physically and emotionally...give support and help as much as i can...hopefully i'll see each patient as human beings, hopefully dpt bantu dorg sama mcm bantu keluarga or kawan2 sendiri...yes people, sometimes bila dah terlalu "biasa" sgt dgn situation tu, seseorang mungkin jadi lupa diri...kesakitan dan kematian itu mungkin boleh jadi perkara biasa sampai xtimbul dalam hati apa perasaan pesakit ataupun keluarga mereka...we might treat them as "just people" instead of a person with feelings...nauzubillah...jauhkanlah diriku dari berperasaan sebegitu...

klah, nk smbung lipat kain...sekian...hehe...

What I'm Doing Now

its 12 am in manipal...and as usual, this is like 8pm in my own biological clock...i'll be dizzy mizzy at around 5am, baru la terhegeh2 nak tido...*sigh*

anyway, i'm forcing myself to study for this upcoming exam which would be on thursday a.k.a tomorrow in the real date & time...terpakse memakse diri...why? because i was too busy moving out from previous house to this new apartment which i'm staying along with another 3 new housemates for another lucky 6 months...hehe...hopefully...glad that they are actually my friends and also my classmates whom just like me, fatefully 'stranded' here... :) they're great people...i'm sure we're gonna make staying at this house a very memorable one...harap2 semua pass exam dgn cemerlang & terbilang...

owh, back to the exam thingy...right now i'm practicing my CPR skill ----> on my teddy a.k.a MABE MONTEY...dont ask me how and why did i came up with this name, i just dont knw...it just popped into my mind when my bestie shanad presented me montey when she came to manipal last time...haha...nk tgk montey?

a big fluffy huggable bear - MONTEYYYYYY

dah byk berjasa beliau padaku, i practiced alot on montey...call it anything, cpr? stitching? or even role playing...hohohohoho...i told last time about me main dokter2 berangan jumpe patient and prescribe ubt2 semua...well people, meet the 'patient'...hahaha...trust me...it helped me alot...

klah, i should go and move on with other topics...another IM injection and endotracheal intubation...the rest would be memorising the notes just like theory paper, which i'm gonna do tomorrow...harini habiskan segala clinical skills...esk bru hafal2...

huuuuuuuuuuu~ thank god i have this blog...tempat meluahkan perasaan...skrg terase sungguh bosan & sunyi...terus xtau nk buat ape lantas belajar atas nama exm...huhuhu...kenape bile tido lambat selalu akan timbul rase sunyi yg amat sgt? paling xbley blah bile dok emosi tetibe terase mcm xde sape peduli, padahal amat logiklah bile time2 mcm ni sume org dh ke alam tido...yg dicari semua bertidur-tiduran sudah...zzzzzz~

a relieved voice of mine

!!!EXAM IS FINALLY OVER!!!

My theory paper had just finished yesterday...Thanks to hundreds of loved ones out there who had been supporting me for all this while and pray for my success...Life isn't over with an episode of failure...Life goes on, happily...depends on how u take it...I admit that failing isn't that easy...only Allah knows how hard it was...u might lose everything, literally everything...but to see on the bright side, u'll find something new...the side that not all people could have the chance to see, but some how u had been fatefully forced into it...the opportunity that only u could have, the knowledge that only u could learn, the people that only u could meet...its not easy, but i could say here, its worth it & its not that bad...

to others, your failure might just be one of their sad news to hear...which would soon forgotten...but to u, this would be a big deal, you were crushed so badly that your entire life might need a huge change, even you yourself would become someone else ----> hopefully, the better you...

I might not been able to tell people out loud about this problem...well of course i took it personal...seriously personal...to have never been getting the F marks and walk around with a permanent F on ur forehead, of course i mourn and whine like a lot...and of course i'd feel like world isnt fair to me, how could god possibly punished me this way...and so on...and it took me few months to adjust and accept the fate that this is one of the ways to get through to make me better, for the future...like all the people who failed, my parents were enraged by it...i got scolded and god knows, they have never been mad at me in my whole life, until that day...and being an obedient child, i just kept my mouth shut and my eyes closed...i didn't even cry in front of them...

and then i learned something:

its so painfully unbearable to hear a person saying that its your own fault for your failure because you didn't even study and for the fact that you played alot, watched movies alot, facebooked alot, and got stupidly in love with some new guy, and got so carried away till you forgot about your exam, and you didn't remember god that much until you totally deserve to fail...and that person is your own parent...and its so much painful when the truth is you studied so crazily that you didn't have much time to sleep or go out having fun, for the whole month of study break, u only moved around back and forth between ur kitchen and bedroom...you missed a lot of the news from ur friends or even whatever happening back in malaysia because u were so into studying...its so painful when u failed even though u've tried ur best to even pass the exam...its more painful because u only failed by 1-2 marks from the passing line...and after doing a lot of blaming myself from not forcing my own ass to study a little bit more, if i did i might been able to get another 1-2 marks more that might change everything...i might be with all my friends and right now i'd be happily packing up my things to go back malaysia for good...but it didn't happen that way...talking about fate...takdir tuhan itu sgt misteri...i remembered people always say...kadang2 apa yg kita nak, bukanlah yg terbaik utk kita...kadang2 apa yg tuhan tetapkan, walaupun kita xsuka, tapi itulah yg terbaik...terimalah dgn hati yg terbuka...setiap yg terjadi ade hikmahnya...usaha, doa & tawakkal, selainnya tu ketentuan Allah...

i shall say that i'm happy now...skrg bru boleh nampak siapa yg betul2 kawan dalam susah senang...and siapa kwn utk bersenang saje...everyone will care for u, trust me...but not everyone loves u that much to support u, help u out when u fall down, to be there when u're alone...only true friends will...and of course your family...my parents might say those words because they were as scared as i was that time...if my life had been crushed, its more painful for them to see their beloved daughter who were growing up excellently since she was a baby, became like this...mom even cried so hard that i myself couldnt believe it that time...as if somebody died...but its true, parents are the only people who would feel double the pain when u fail...sape x sedih...they brought me up so well...i could recite a doa when i was 1 year old...i could read and speak so well without ckp pelat, since i was 3...i was the best in all my schools...sekolah rendah my marks had never been below 90...in my secondary schools, i was always one of the best...what a proud parents they were...anak yg sgt berdikari and xbyk masalah...an easy child...everything went on smoothly...if i were them, mestilah bangga jugak...then tibe2 dh amik medic ni, fail pulak...terkejut bkn kepalang la kan...

the day i had to returned here...my parents bought tickets to india at the airport...nak dtg cni utk tgk mcm mane i study...nk check anak dier dok main ke kt cni...they came a month later, only to found me studying like hell...dad were sleeping on my bed, while mom was watching hindi movies that time...and i was there to memorize all the drugs for the next day exam...i showed them my notes and books...and i showed them the amount i had to memorize...since that they became so understanding...even now i still have some nervous breakdown once in a while...to be honest, a few days ago...i cried so badly, saying sorry to mom and promised her i'd do my best to not disappoint her ever again...all she said "don't worry, ape nak jadi lepas ni xpelah, we'll figure it out later...mama tau alia dh cuba yg terbaik...kalau xboleh jugak maybe its not ur call...whatever happens, we're so proud of u"

the thing is...you're not dead when u failed...all u need to do is to get on ur feet first and make a plan b...allah tu maha penyayang...setiap yg terjadi ada hikmahnya, cuma lambat sikit la nk nampak apekah jenis hikmah disebaliknye tu...while waiting for that, adalah lebih baik kalau kita terima kenyataan dan berusaha lagi ke arah kebaikan...life isn't over yet...kalau satu jalan ditutup, pergilah jalan lain...teruskan berjalan...biar lambat, asal selamat sampai...mungkin jalan baru lebih penuh dgn buah-buahan & bunga2 yg wangi...biar sampai ke destinasi dgn senyuman... :) one step at a time...

now i know the feelings of others who failed...before this mcm xtahu sgt, seriously...i kept on telling them to continue studying, find other ways that suits u the best, and give more time for studying bla bla bla...i thought that was the ways to support a friend...what i missed the most was fate might be one of the factor...i forgot that we all worked hard...of course la, xde sape dlm dunia ni nak gagal...tp xde sape dlm dunia yg boleh tentukan nasib masing2...the outcome is still at the hand of Allah...terimalah ape2 yg terjadi, for its the best for u...trust me...

after coming back here, i had to undergo the special classes for repeaters...there were 7 of us for pharmacology subject...yup, sadly manipal here doesn't have this second exam kinda thing...once u failed, u need to wait for another 6 months to join ur juniors in their exam...now add that to my misery...penantian tu suatu penyiksaan bukan...hoho...tp xde sgt, sementara menanti i siap2kan diri semolek-moleknya...god knows i never had this kinda free time in my whole like since i entered school...dulu skolah2 slalu kene pegi kelas dpd pagi smpai ptg, then mlm buat homework, baca buku...blablabla...skrg ni kelas 3 kali seminggu...hell if i had a million in my bank i'd go travel every week and manjakan diri dgn shopping2...lol...mmg tersangat2 free...dah la pegi kelas open book test, jwb la few questions, then balik...sleepwaking to class...heheh...

but i didnt take it that way...dgn penuh rasa tanggungjwb, mestilah i balik pun study...mungkin dulu i studied for the sake of exams, yelah, with so little time, u don't really have much urge to dig into all the reasons behind the pills u were studying...dulu2 study demi exam, hafal & telan pastu bile exam muntah balik...skrg i study to become a doctor...now i could see pharmacology as an interesting subject...yelah, bile dh ada byk sgt masa, mestilah nk complicatedkan lagi keadaan...i suke bygkan konon2 ade pesakit dtg dgn symptom2 dier, then i kaji sesuai x nk bagi ikut umur, pekerjaan or penyakit lain dier...then bru bagi ubat...pastu explain kt dier konon2 pakcik/makcik, kene control dier, bile nk mkn ubt sume ni...call me crazy but its a really fun way to learn...others might laugh, seriously, i know that some people who are meant to take medicine would study all this and ace the subject easily...that explain why some people struggled so hard to pass a subject while there's a bunch who got even 90marks for the same paper...over and over again...heran betul, but its their call, good for them...kadang2 bila kita mmg sesuai dgn suatu ilmu, semua dpt diserap dgn baik...sgt2...i knw tht feeling...time2 skolah i dnt have to study much, i duduk hostel, kt kelas slalu mengantuk, balik asrama i tido paling awal...but i still managed to get high marks, and to tell the truth, i pun xtau mcm mane nk explain dh...i tried ajar org lain, bg tips, buat study groups...now i knw, that ilmu itu memilih jugak rupanya...certain people mmg terang hati sgt2...some people dont...mcm i skrg, medic ni i terase susah...bila tgk balik, xsusah pun...if its really ur call, then u'll feel so much at ease...kalau mcm i, dpd mula mmg xde hati pun nk amik medic...tapi dh ditakdirkan ke arah cni, i might as well work for it...mungkin susah sedikit utk i, tp still boleh capai...cuma lambat cket la...dont worry, i'll make this work in my own way...xpernah lagi ade budak medic yg dok berangan main dokter2 dgn her own teddy bear while memorizing drugs...i'd be the first...hopefully later on, i'd become a great doctor...i want to be a great doctor...bukan yg terkenal atau popular, tapi i nak jadi yg dapat membantu org lain, boleh layan kerenah pesakit dgn baik, explain kt dorg, kurangkan sakit dorg, happykan hati dorg...i want my patients to be healthy & happy...that's a true doctor right? :)

to those people who had failed, dont worry...hidup xselalu indah, tapi xjugak selalu ribut...jgn putus asa...take things positively and move on... :)

and yes, my ways of learning does work for me i guess...i've becomed so much better...mom said i even sound like a doctor already when she asked my advice on her meds...and exams seemed easier, alhamdullilah...kuasa allah...exam dulu i terase mcm nk jerit kesusahan...tp exam skrg i rase mcm nk menangis kesenangan...berkat doa all my loved ones...thank u so much...

gambar ni comel sgt, xtahan...haha...Fighting! :D

hope in 10 years time i'd be one of the best

-amin-

oh oh oh!

perrghhhhhhh, dtg2 kt blog nih terus kabur dek sawang-sawangan...tangan pun terawang-awang menepis debu deban yg terbang2 membentuk kabus asap hitam...hooooo~ teruk sgt... (T_T) tp mmg da lme terase dok tgl blog ni...SEBULAN...betul kan? huhuhu...sorry people, selagi i dok study2 ni i rase sume bende bagaikan hangat2 tahi ayam (cewahhhh, da lame sgt teringin nk guna peribahasa neh...rase mcm da lme tgl bhs mlayu...hohoho...jentik cket...aishhhh, walopun i tercampak kt india ni, ktorg still ckp mlayu la...yg org utara masih pekat lagi dok ckp utara...dnt worry...heh...xdenye lupe...cume kebakuan bahasa itu agak hilang sedikit demi sedikit...lihat sahaja nukilanku ini...hahaha...terase sedikit segan jikalau ada adik2 di skolah yg taiko bahasa melayu melihat blog ini...apepun, abaikan saje...asai hang paham apa akak dok celoteh ni sudah la dikkkk ooiiiii...hahaha...ayat bersalah...lol) 

back to the story, selagi i dok study, exam pasti menyerang secara bertubi2 sehinggakan diri ini menjadi kebal tatkala menjawab soalan (nah hengkau ayat puitis...layankan saje...now mode nak berbahasa...sile berbudi...lol...rosak2..) seriously, skrg mcm dh lali sgt, xsempat nak berdebar pun...dah biase sgt, bosan mencuakkan diri...haha...apakah...justeru diriku bagaikan sleepwalking je ke dewan peperiksaan dan menjawab dgn steadynye menggunakan satu tangan...haha...ade ke org guna 2 tgn? hahaha...kot la dh nervous sgt kan...who knws? lol...anyway, mungkin bagus kan bile dh mcm ni...yela, awal2 dulu study bagaikan nak rak, takut sgt2 dgn exam...skrg.. fuhhhhh...hembusss jeee...lol...but its true...bile dh slalu exam, we'll be like constantly studying no matter what, always prepared...kalau ade serangan mengejut pun kami boleh (jwb soalan jela...lol...suh pegi perang betul2 jenuh gak kan...haha)...owh kalau sebut sleepwalking tu bukan la pegi dgn xde ape2 persediaan...of course we all study jugak, cuma xde la last minute kan...


i ingat lagi pada zaman dahulu i jenis yg slalu study last minute...siapa tidak suka? meh nk tgk muka cket...hahaha...i'd tell you...sepandai2 manusia belajar, akan ada masa di mana setan2 berdendang sakan di telinga dan hati supaye lagha akan bende2 keduniaan...ataupun mimpian (hahaha, ni bile setan hasut suh tido...) astaghfirullahalazimmm...kene cepat beristighfar, sedarkan diri, and kembali ke jalan asal...teruskan perjuangan study tuh...huuuuu~ belajar itu biar kerana allah...menuntut ilmu itu ibadat juga...yg baik2 moga dapat dipraktikkan di masa hadapan, utk tolong keluarga & bangsa...hmm, bukan niat nk susun ayat manis tp ni la hakikatnya...buat apa belajar tapi ilmu tu sia2...kalau buat sesuatu biar berfaedah & bermanfaat kpd semua...ingat mak ayah hantar belajar jauh2 sbb nak anak balik goyang kaki ke? mesti la nak anak nanti senang dpt keje, support mak ayah, tolong family...and of course tolong masyakarat keliling...jgn lupa tujuan asal belajar...duit kerajaan jgn membazir mcm tu je...study la, sbb tu tanggungjawab sbg student...gagal bile dah separa mati berusaha tu mungkin dugaan allah utk kuatkan diri kita....tapi gagal kalau diri sendiri yang sengaja xberusaha, nak buat mcm mane...menyesal xsudah kan...masa bertahun terbuang mcm tu je...hohohoh...cik alia dh start berletiaq...sorry people...xpasal2 kan...haha...ni bile mood dh dtg nak mengepost, mule la menaip sesuka jari kan...haha...


just remember, its never too late to change, towards the better you...no matter what you do, make sure you know that you're making the right decision, by doing the right things, in the right way...life is like a road, and you're a traveler...only that, once you've walked by a path, there's no turning back...it's all up to you whether to take the right or left once you've encountered a junction...and continue your journey, heads up high, chin lifted, and walk by confidently...for what its worth, you yourself know you're doing the right thing...if thing doesn't go the way you planned, don't worry...where there's a will, there's always a way...have faith...and move on...Someone said to me today..."Everything in life is temporary. So if things are going good, enjoy it bcoz it won't last forever. And if things are going bad, don't worry. It won't last forever either." (^_*) 

haihhhh...i can just blabs around in another thousands of motivating words...but the truth is, i myself am not sure what lies ahead...life had been a damn roller-coaster for the past few years...i shall say i am leading a very peculiar life...ape yg pelik? biarlah rahsia...hohohoooooo...yg penting mmg pelik, tetapi penuh warna warni, penuh drama, ketawa & tangisan, suka duka...owh, i love growing up...hidup zaman kanak-kanak dahulu boleh dikatakan pink2 purple2...time skolah pula bagaikan robot, setiap hari benda yg sama dibuat, owh i am a nerd student in those days, all i think about was studying and getting good grades...hmm, mungkin sebab tu zaman sekolah bagaikan colour kelabu hitam putih...agak bosan...tibe2 dah abis spm, and yes, result maintain terbaik...skrg??? hidup sungguh warna warni!!! i learnt about so many things...growing up katekan...getting older is tough, but that's what makes life interesting and never dull...i'd rather be living in a life full of ups & downs rather than a monotonic wave...

ok, tu je bebelan arini...terpakse kembali ke alam nyata...huuuu~

bubye blog world...brb in a month...

please pray for my exam ok

(^_*)

xoxoxoxo

Cerita Dulu-dulu 1

hohohoho...setelah berduyun2 dok send entri contests...tibalah masanya bila aku dh xtau nk buat apa...hisyhhhh, harini pun xleh tido awal jugak...jenuh la mcm ni...nanti terskip class ke, even worse time2 nak exam kan jenuh tu...haihhhhhh...mcm mane nk pakse tido nih? ade ke istilah pakse tido? tetibe teringat zaman kecik2 time dok kt nursery or tadika...petang2 pas lunch je sume bdk2 kene masuk bilik and tido...cisss, bukak mate pun xleh weyh, apatah lagi bukak mulut...tido la dlm 3-4 jam, then ptg time2 nk tgu mak bpk dtg amik bru leh kuar main2 di laman...huuu~ seksa kot...kalau yg jenis kuat tido time kecik xpe gak kan, tp kalau yg agak hyper cemane? hyper nk gerak muscles2 pegi lari sana sinun, begitu juga yg hyper di mulut terase nk bercakap...terkinja2 nak kuarkan beberapa abjad jugak2...hahaha...time2 org kate xboleh tu lagi tempted nak buat...hahaha...comel betul...kenangan kanak2 riang...

kalau skrg pas mkn je dan2 ngntuk...tht's one of the reasons i dont take early breakfast in the morning except a cup of coffee...owh2, btw breakfast is a must to everyone, never skip it ok...its just a matter of time when you should take it, depends on u actually...kalau mcm i mmg xleh la makan pepagi tu, confirm ngntuk lepas tuh, postprandial hyperglycemia a.k.a blood sugar level increased after eating (tp xde la smpai ke nak jadi diabetic kan...okay2 lagi) and symptoms dier adalah drowsiness, fatigue, blurred vision...so paham2 jela kan...lepas tu tahap keinginan utk mentidurkan diri adalah sgt tinggi...haha...sampai juling2 mata menahan okeyhhh...seksa betul... :))

a googled pic...tp sumpah my class is just like this EACH time after a lecture! haha...i guess kt mane2 uni pun sume student mengalami tabiat yg same...mengantuk dlm class...abis je sume pakat terdampar atas meja...lol

xperlu tunggu disorong bantal, sorong tgn pun jalan...hahaha...ade tu kalau kt kelas, sampai boleh tido smbil duduk, nk hebat lagi tido smbil bukak mata...xtipu weyh! sedar2 da abis class kot...seb baik lecturer xtanya kan...hahaha...naya hang..tp ade yg lebih hebat, lecturer tny pun leh jwb...wohohoho...kisah benar...i guess bile dh separa sedar pun boleh jugak masuk kan...maybe that's one of the reason people say kalau nak senang ingat bende, try baca b4 tido...hehe, i dulu penah gak konon2 nak try buat experiment teori ni...haha, curious...tp mungkin boleh caye kot...dulu2 zaman muda2 time nk amik spm, b4 tido je i bukak buku sejarah...HAHAHAHAHA! ye , tepat sekali tuan2 puan2, niat sebenar ketika itu sbb nk bagi tido awal...lol...tau2 jelah kt hostel kan harommmm membawa segala bahan hiburan, novel majalah sume khurafat abis...jadi tido berbantalkan buku sejarah, wahhhhh nangis weyh cikgu dpt student mcm ni...lol...and tau2 jelah dok hostel mlm2 tu after lights off bukan sume nk tido kan...bising bukan main...yela, we're like sisters back then...kalau boleh, gossip 24 jam pun xpe...ade saje bende nk citer2 or gelak2...yg perlu tido tu jenuh la...so buku sejarah la ikhtiar yg i ade utk tido awl...hahahaha...ngeng, but seriously that was wut i did...AS WE ALL KNOW, buku sejarah tersangat2 bosan...kan2? kalau xde exam, jgn harap aku nak bc bagaikan novel2...tp aku gagahkan jugak bc mlm2 pun...cause i love my history teacher...beliau sgt2 vogue and great...sepanjang 6 buah sekolah menengah aku pegi dulu, xde sorg pun cikgu yg hebat mcm dier, mengajar xpayah bukak buku teks...i totally agreed with her...bile dh ade buku, tu tugas student utk bc...bile kt class, tugas cikgu adalah utk mengajar dan bukan tolong same2 membaca...x ke? no wonder people sleep in class, well i did...hahaha...xsenonoh kan...

ye, i was one of the top students back in school days...but i was perfectly normal...just like the others...yg slalu disuruh diam bile dok sembang dlm class, yg didenda sbb xbawak buku, yg tido dlm class, yg kdg2 xleh jwb soalan, yg punya konflik di skolah...and yg "menembus pagar"~ hahaha, xde la lompat pagar kan, haku betoi2 xpaham pasaipa org dok lompat pagaq, hang p jalan depan pak guard and go out sudah...heh, hebat x? and i did that...selalu kot...hohoho...konon2 emergency nk beli pads or cikgu suh kuar beli blablabla utk assignment, hahaha padahal haku dok hentam kfc dgn kwn2 kot...lol...ala, budak2...biase la...xpun terus telus saje dgn pakguard tu, ckp teringin sgt mkn nasi lemak special...hahaha...and amik la pesan dorg skali pegi tolong beli skali...sng bukan...lol...lgpun bukannye pegi meronggeng jauh2, smoking or clubbing kan...setakat kuar dpd pagar je...and of course like i said, kalau org kate xboleh, itu jugak nk buat sgt2...terase berjaya xterhingga...hahahah...silly me...tp dgn syarat ko baik la dgn pak guard tuh kan...berbaik okey, lain tu dpd istilah menggedik, menggoda & menggatal...haihhh, dulu2 mmg byk betul alasan dibuat dgn pintarnye...hahaha...lagi satu bile time prep i salu ponteng...tp sebab ade record top student so bile xde dlm class tu sume pakat ingat alia dok kt library or mane2 tmpt yg sepatutnye...well, alia mmg slalu study okey...cume bile2 dtg mood kebosanan tahap melampau tu yg bru nk buat2 alasan, dgn beraninye i skip prep and pegi bantai tido kat surau...hahaha...sorg2 pulak...cool giler...byk kali pulak tu...sedap seyh ptg2 yg panas tu tido kt surau yg aman damai...agak2 org azan asar tu bgn la menandakan waktu prep telah habis...hahaha...sengal x...yg paling xboleh tahan bile kt dlm class kalau mengantuk tahap sehabis nyawa dh, i branikan diri pegi jumpe HEM and ckp xsihat/migrain/demam blablabla...of course dier bg balik, muke org xcukup tido mmg akan jadi kesian tersgt2...and kalau dok buat dlm dua bulan skali mcm tu of course xde sape tau hang dok berpura2 kan...lol...so i pun balik and tido di sickbay...tp kalau malas kt sickbay, terus saje ke hostel...huahuahua...ala, aku tau diri aku baik xde teringin nk mencuri brg2 budak kan...so balik tido jela...hehe, the good old days...well overall, saya ni normal saje...just like others :)

berbalik pada teori baca before tido, mujarab jugak la i can say...ditambah lagi dgn faktor guru...owh, i syg sume cikgu2 i...sbb dorg jugak la i berjaya sampai ke tahap skrg...thank u so much...tuhan saje boleh balas jasa baik dorg...susah nak jaga student...tension bile dorg nak exam...i ingat lagi time2 cikgu sanggup dtg mlm2 hujan2 just nak buat kelas tambahan kt ktorg...bawak kertas soalan berbeg2...sungguh, besar sgt jasa dorg...i ingat lagi sorg cikgu nangis sbb result i teruk for the subject she teaches, owh ya teruk sbb i dpt C, padahal other subjects ok je...dier salahkan diri dier xreti ajar...i nangis jugak okeyh, xterfikir dier amik kira smpai mcm tu skali...maybe sbb cikgu baru kot, she needed some confidence...so i bgtau dier yg i nk join class budak2 lemah study, i told her xkisah la susah mane pun, i nk try be better, and i would help others if i can...bukan nk tunjuk baik sgt, tapi bende2 mcm tu kite xrugi kan? and yes, terpancar sinar kehappyan bile i pegi class dier tny2 soalan, tu belum lagi time i dpt A subject tu...and i said thanks to her...terima kasih cikgu :) 

and for the sejarah thing, sebab i suke sgt2 dah subject tu...sbb cikgu tu i jatuh cinta dgn history subject...sume bende jadi senang...she encouraged her students to think on their own...jgn depend sgt on books...cuba buat cerita sendiri, filem sendiri, and ayat sendiri...heh, time spm sumpah la i ckp i mmg buat ayat sendiri...menyesal jugak sbb xhafal ayat kan, takut salah but i hentam habis ikut sedap tgn menulis...berjela2 kuar jawapan, bukan sebab dah confirm tau tu sume betul, tapi sebab dlm hati xpasti semua so main tulis je ape yg ingat...guess wut, i was the top in history back then...xpernah dalam hidup haku akan terpikir ade org leh dpt 100% utk sejarah, but i did that 3 times...and disebabkan xde istilah 100% dlm sejarah so cikgu kene buat2 potong markah sedikit...heh...and my notes were used as a reference...haihhh, the good old days...apepun membaca before tido boleh la dipraktikkan jugak...provided its not the things u have to memorise by words, but the things you need to understand on your own and have some of the ideas to be added as well...critical & creative thinking are all in your amazing brain... :)

anyway, i rase kalau skrg nk bg tips2 study ketika skolah mmg boleh sgt2...because trust me brothers and sisters, zaman sekolah mmg study direct je on the books and questions...i ni jenis malas sgt2 nk study, smpai skrg pun...haha, xsenonoh kan...name je medic student...lol...tapi i pakse diri jugak2...jgn manjakan diri kite...dlm hati, kite sume tau wuts our priority in life...which one benefits us, and which one doesnt...dlm hati kite sume tau yg kalau berusaha keras pasti dapat...allah akan tolong kite bile kite tolong diri sendiri...usaha, doa, tawakal...kalau xde usaha, xmalu ke nak mintak tolong allah, and nak berserah terus2an...kalau la ditakdirkan dpt ape yg kite nak, xpelah, allah kan maha pemurah & penyayang...tapi kalau xberusaha and xdapat, jgn salahkan sesape tp diri sendiri...nak pasrah pun dgn penuh penyesalan...huhuhu...

okeylah, that's all for now...da byk membebel kot...

nanti2 pulak smbung ye :) tgk mood...haha...now nak kene pegi study for today...exam is always around the corner...haha...so cliche~ betul xtipu, ktorg xabis2 exam...i bru je exam end of november, then 20th december aritu, and the next one would be early january...the next one again will be on 14th february if i'm not mistaken...see, setiap bulan kau...mmg xde keje lain dh la, study study study...name pun medic student kan...study jelah kejenye...terpakse memaksa diri demi kebaikan semua pihak...haha...see, mlm2 xleh tido pun pegi cari buku...mom, if u see this, i knw u would be so proud of me...akhirnya alia telah betul2 menuju ke jalan yg lurus, di mana bile2 smpai ke tahap kebosanan je terus pegi mencari buku...bangga x? lol

muahmuah...cheers to evryone~ ♥