a flow of thoughts 5

~mOO mOOdy day~

maybe it was the damn hot dry weather

maybe it was the pms problem

or maybe it was the people here

(not fmly & frens...i mean the strangers of coz)

i had a pretty bad day...xde mood smpai skrg...

• pharmac IL (independent learning) class had been such an irritating one...jst ask any of other student, they'll just roll their eyes and say "sabar jela..." or "wut the heck" or "bodo gile" or "ntah hape2 class td"...and i mean it...we were supposed to learn certain topics ourselves...dh name pun independent learning...and of coz people did went back and did some reading...it might not be perfect but at least i could see people were making effort to do so...hey, we're not stupid...evryone knws they have their own responsibility here...busy mcm mane pun, tetap akan study jugak...however, bck to the story...this time, the IL was conducted differently...usually there'll be no class...coz name pun IL, so bc kt bilik jela...then this time we had to attend the class...okay, i kinda like the idea of discussing all this...and the lecturers had given us more specific objectives (more detail & more complicated...huhu...but so much helpful) thank you very much :) but i dont knw why, maybe because this is the 1st time change is made so it turned out to be one of the classes i hate to go...tension la...dah kalau bende berjela2, and no significance pun, bukannye dpt extra marks for exm...its merely a discussion...jadi xpayah la nk over sgt cik oi...org dh la busy...nk kene hafal lagi, xboleh bukak notes apatah lagi buku...pastu nk suruh jwb soalan (xpe la kan, nk jwb2 ni bende biase la) tapi xnk jwpn simple2...nk suruh jwb penuh2...pastu nk ugut2 pulak kan...mentang2 la dier tau bdk2 MMMC ni lemah bab2 attendance...boleh pulak nk mark absent...just bcoz xleh jwb few things...ikut nasib la kalau kene tny soalan yg mmg org xbrape nk faham...nyesal je pegi class...baik la ponteng...xde sakit ati sgt...and though i wasnt asked, but i could feel the tense...frm the strt till the end...at last i feel like i didnt get anything...wut a waste...though i did memorize like 70% of it, but there was no additional notes tht i could add up...bcoz the lecturer didnt allow us to hold our notes at all...like i've said, agk buang mase...ni lebih kurang mcm study, n nk bgtau dier yg dah study...xde ape2 tambahan utk ktorg...but wut to do, WE'RE JUST STUDENTS...bear with it...SABAR JELAH...
• then when i got bck home, tetibe ade org punggah cermin tingkap...i guess the previous tenant had reported some leakage from the windows...and tau2 jela india kan, agk lembab...lepas setahun bru nk ganti...dah basi la report...btw, there was no prob in my windows actually...but they had taken them down...WITHOUT EVEN TELLING ME...suke ati je dtg umah pastu ckp nk ganti tingkap kan...silap tingkap pulak tu, it was my housemate's windows that have some probs...org dah la penat2 (yeah, im hvng period pain right now since morning) skali tgk bilik penuh cebisan2 tepi tingkap tu...da kotor dh bilik...xdpt nk rest...pekerja2 tu pulak hilang ntah mane...hah, ape lagi...i called the manager and insist they come & fix the windows right away...he should at least confirm out with me...or even tell me this morning...but he didnt...bikin panas je...dah tu dengan org2 baiki tingkap tu pun kene bebelan dariku ini...xpe, for their own gud...next time they'll be more careful in dealing with the customer (customer ke i ni? i dont even report tht...i dont even wnt it to be fixed!)...hisyhhh...AGAIN, SABAR JELAH...after an hour bru la dpt rest...and xtahan sgt so i skipped microb prac class... the best remedy for anger is to SLEEP...and again the best remedy for period pain is to SLEEP...and so i did...puasssss atiiiii!!!!!!! bgn2 dah cool cket :)

hmm, what a day...dah la sakit perut, sakit hati pulak kan...terase nk mrh je arini...huhu...

plz god, its 8.45pm now...tenangkan la hatiku ini...at least give something to cheer me up...

bosannye hidup :( i need some peaceful air to breathe...time2 ni la mule nk homesick balik...

wonder wut they're doing right now...miss u abah, mama, acha, ayet, miya...huhu...

wanna go home...

not a day passes by where i dont remember my family

they're my everything

the strength tht kept me going

day by day

~evrything i do, im doing it for u~

alia akan berusaha keras

utk mama & abah

and my beloved bro+sis

♥

xoxo

quote of the day:

...For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness...

so deal with it

be happy always

(yes i am)

(^_^)