Sunday, August 08, 2010

dreams

i love u so much syg
this special feeling comes once in a blue moon
and i'd like to keep it permanently in my heart
there won't be a day where i'd wake up not thinking bout u
u r a part of my life now...so please be mine, forever
aya cinta fahmi
A & F
-one day-

one of the bad days 4

how pressured a medic student could be:
VERY EXTREMELY RIDICULOUSLY TREMENDOUSLY SEVERELY STRESSED & STRAINED TO THE MAX!!!!!!!and i mean it :(

the final exam will start next saturday, 14th august...one week to go...i'm getting stressed & stressed day by day...terase nk botak kepala, luruh segala rambut, kedut segala kulit, kecut segala otak...huhuhu...tension!!! if only i could stop the time...and sleep peacefully...i need to breathe, without having any stress, fear, anger or any negative feelings...huhuhu...

*if only im a time traveler, i nk pegi masa2 yg aman damai hepy riang gumbira...
*if only i anak raje, i'd stop studying and balik msia dgn hepynye, and bile ade mood nk study or exam bru dtg cni blk...yes yes, if only boleh study bile ade mood je...and not all the time...please god ease my burdens here!!!!!!

if only!!! bab ank raje tu yg paling appealing skrg...i need a break!!! xnk exam!!! huhuhu...i wonder if other students taking other major were studying like me...like us freaks...do u? :( ade x mane2 manusia yg study bile ade mood je? ade x yg xpayah sampai nk pakse2 diri study? ade x yg perasaan dorg relax je dpd mula course smpai la dh grad? ade x? :( nk nangis kejelesan bile pk psl ni...ade x? kalau ade, nk pegi tarik2 rmbut dorg smbil suruh bersyukur sgt2 xterjebak dlm kancah medic ni...gile wey~ gile~

skrg ni terase mcm askar nk pegi berperang...and somehow this saturday lebih krg mcm hari bertempur...berdebar setiap mase...terase mcm akan mati dek kene hentam bom & peluru bertubi2 nanti...im preparing my own weapons and protections too...but hey, maybe there're just some simple rifles & machineguns instead of freakin grenades or bazookas...jauh sekali ke tahap chemical weapons kan...wut do u expect huh...wish i could mug up all the things in the book...i wish my brain works like a supercomputer all the time...i wish...heh...

terase jugak mcm the only survivor in a zombieworld...or some planet of the mutants/aliens...tgu mase nk mati je...i'm so dead...terase nk serah diri, biar kene baham abis2...ambik jela aku zombie...malas nk pk...malas jugak nk lari...biar the end cepat2...huhuhu...xpun konon2 terkurung dalam rumah berhantu, yg hantu mmg giler nk makan org je...the ju-on versi cannibal...deym, i'd just let her suck my blood...dah xlarat nk terkejut2...or tgu dlm keadaan jantung nk tercabut...xlarat nk jerit, xlarat nk tahan jerit...

huhuhu...but its true...when u feared sumthing so much, kalau dah banyak kali sgt dok takut, and survive slalu, walaupun dgn hecticnye, lame2 bosan dh nk takut2 pun...and wuts more worse than that is u'd lose the fear and end up taking things for granted...u dont feel like fighting anymore...dh bosan...okay, i dont even knw wut i'm typing, tgh serabut giler ni...

i should stop
and get some sleep
*terase mcm nk gila la...seriously...i have this vague vision of me in an asylum...wearing all white...with the background song of Behind Blue Eyes...konon2 the gothika...ahahahah...ok dah2, merepek dh ni...
*another if only ----- if only im not afraid of failing...
*if only exam is just a simple matter to me...
*if only life is that easy :(
*maybe im not supposed to be here :( maybe...
*tido*

Saturday, August 07, 2010

no other words can describe this feeling except LOVE

i'm so in love with u fahmi♥

have u ever loved sum1 more than enough to:
  • feel so blessed till u r on top of the world whole time, u even reached the clouds :) lalala floating & bouncing here & there throwing feathers & heart confetti...hehehe~
  • cry as u felt so grateful for the bliss ur love brings into ur life, and god knws how much u treasure his presence...and of course u wouldn't wanna lose him, in a million years...even just thinking bout losing him made u cry...ahahahah! this is so true...i cant help it, the tears just came out...huuu~
  • feel so happy that u begin to see the world in a different way...more colourful rather than black, white or grey...suddenly u've become a new you...the aura is just so remarkable...u even feel like u're spreading the love to everyone...hehe...
  • have this weird butterflies everytime he says he loves & misses u...and the butterflies seemed to multiply from time to time...and then burst out making u suffocated in ur breath...ahahaha, okay i might be exaggerating...but its true...nervousness + joy combined in one feeling = love...
  • have your heart beats frantically whenever u think of him...and u'd wann be with him all the time...
  • feel so lucky that u r the one he chose, out of all da bombs out there...and u r so proud to be called his...
  • feel so pretty cause he said so even though u r at ur worst...u feel like the most beautiful of all...despite knwing the reality that a lot of better girls out there...hehehe...yeah, im special...cause i have him :)
  • have this beautiful dreams of ur future, and of course that would include him...and the word "together" always comes in the dreams...also the word "us" :)
  • find urself smiling unconciously while listening to all the songs...and somehow u could feel the pain, love, anger, sad in all the songs...though they have nothing to do with ur life...u get kinda sensitive to feelings...its easier to internalized, feel empathy or sympathy...
  • find urself imagining both of u being in the romantic films that u were watching...he's the hero & u're the heroin...and sometime u even have this thoughts that ur life is way way happier than those movies... :)
lovey, saya cinta awak sgt2
hehehe
muahxoxo

Santana & Chad Kroeger - Why Don't You And I ♥

i love this song so much
from santana & chad (nickelback) ♥
for u lovey :)
why don't you and I 
get together and take on the world
and be together forever
jom2 encik fahmi...hehe...


Since the moment I spotted you, 
Like walking around with little wings on my shoes, 
My stomach's filled with the butterflies, 
Ooh, and it's all right, 
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud, 
I'd got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down, 
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied, 

Everytime I try to talk to you, 
I get tongue-tied, 
It turns out that everything I say to you, 
Comes out wrong and never comes out right. 

So I'll say why don't you and I, 
Get together and take on the world and be together forever, 
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again, 
So I'll say why don't you and I, 
Hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven, 
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in. 

When's this fever going to break? 
I think I've handled more than any man can take, 
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around, 
Ooh, and it's all right, 
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud, 
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied.

Everytime I try to talk to you, 
I get tongue-tied, 
It turns out that everything I say to you, 
Comes out wrong and never comes out right. 

So I'll say why don't you and I, 
Get together and take on the world and be together forever, 
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again, 
So I'll say why don't you and I, 
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven, 
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in. 

Slowly I begin to realize, 
This is never going to end 
Right about the same time you walk by, 
And I say 'Oh here we go again',
Oh! 

Everytime I try to talk to you, 
I get tongue-tied, 
It turns out that everything I say to you, 
Comes out wrong and never comes out right. 

So I'll say why don't you and I, 
Get together and take on the world and be together forever, 
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again, 
So I'll say why don't you and I, 
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven, 
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in. 

one month down, forever to go ♥

here's a post-it specially for u :)
this is so like us...hehehe... ;p
muahxoxo

Thursday, August 05, 2010

the sunstreak : until i met you ♥

b, i'm dedicating this song for u :)
I once believed that there was no one for me, until I met you,
But I couldnt see how happy I could be, until I met you,
Until I met you.

Standing alone, no one to call my own, until I met you,
All on my own, and I was colder than stone, until I met you.

Until I met you my world was empty,
Until I met you the sky was grey,
And everything I thought that I believe in
I can feel it all slip away

And that was all until that day
Until the day I met you

I'm fighting this battle with you by my side
I know that I need you
And I've got nothing to hide

I'll stand by you always
I'll want more to ride
I'm here in this moment
I'm shedding my pride

Until I met you my world was empty,
Until I met you the sky was grey,
And everything I thought that I believe in,
I can feel it all slip away
Until the day I met you
ayafahmi

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

suke suki 4



RULES:
Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer, 
take a picture from the first minimal words of explanation.

1. The age you'll be on your next birthday :

2. A place you'll like to travel to :

3. Your favourite place :

4. Your favourite food :

5. Your favourite pet :

6. Your favourite colour combination :
7. Your favourite piece of clothing :

8. Your all time favourite song :

9. Your favourite tv show :

10. First letter for the name of your significant other/crush :

11. The town in which you live in :

12. Your screen name or nickname :
13. Your dream job :

14. Your worst fear :

15. The one thing you'd like to do before you die :

16. The first thing you'll buy if you get $10,000,000 :

17. An important dream:
18. Your astrology sign:

19. You are addicted to:

20. Thing that makes you stress lately:

and the stress never stops...

wish me luck
*sigh*

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

just some stuffs :)

sgt comel la
-im so gonna get these-
♥ ♥ ♥
(^_^)

saje suka suka 4

i love u so much b...
and i keep on loving u everyday...
busy mcm mane pun, i tetap rindu u...setiap masa...

Walk with footsteps, from love once cast,
Two hearts in love, love that would last.

Monday, August 02, 2010

poem 1

i found this well written poem on the net
to my love: fahmi
for u

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart, 
And for us to be together, to never be apart. 

No one else in the world can even compare, 
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give, 
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past, 
By the way you look at me I know we will last. 

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

*sweet kan*

Sunday, August 01, 2010

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