flow of thoughts 19

=jst another bad days=
i still cry like a baby towards my mom

there's no other human being in this world

who would calm me down the way she could

"allah is always with you syg"

"dont give up ok"

i love you mom

i miss you so much

and i need you

before, now, always & forever

im sick & i wanna go home badly

ma, aya demam...nk balik umah la...wuwuwu~

sedih kn...huhu

(T_T)


and to a special thank to someone:
thanks for not leaving me alone by myself
thanks for listening to my crappy bablings
thanks for those encouraging words you said
thanks for the phone call u made
thanks for the sweet song u sang
thanks for the concern you showed
you're a friend that i need
thanks for being there for me
you're a nice guy :)
i feel so much better
emotionally better
but im still sick la...huuuu~
nitey nite
*told you i'd make a special thank you note*
hehe

one of the bad days 3

friends or lover

when you choose lover over your friends

its not good for your friendships

they might say you're giving up on them

they might think you've been carried away

they might feel left out

does that mean they're not supporting?

they're always there

being the friend that you need, they're friends in deed

they're your true friends

but when you choose friends over your lover

it's not good for your love either

it's not like he/she doesn't like them

it's not like he/she asked you to throw them away

it's just he/she needed time for both of you too

does it sound like he's/she's demanding?

does it felt like he's/she's clinging?

he's/she's even here, always

holding back all the bitter feelings

waiting for you with his/her sweetest smile

wishing in silent if only you could set a time

open up your eyes sweetie

and look at the people around you

nobody's asking you to choose either
neither the friends or the lover

no one is worth losing anybody

we just want you to appreciate both

that's all

it's not too hard, right?


-end of story-
♥

flow of thoughts 19

women are complicated

when it comes to the road of life

we always think about thousands steps behind & ahead,

instead of just a step forward

we always think about rainbows & colours, mix & match,

instead of just plain black & white

we always think about the extreme ends of best & worst,

instead of just chill along the way

don't you think so?

*lets sigh together*

~both men & women~

huhu

dream house 1

INTRODUCTION

before i further elaborate about my so-called dreamy2 home sweet sweety home, i better list out some rules...haha...it'd be fun rite?

1) start by choosing the area of your house

2) list down the ideal criteria that you want

3) match them with pictures :)

~good luck~

* btw, here's another confession...i am a daily dreamer...both day & night...haha...so much to dream of...the future is still unclear, but having some thoughts of it isn't that bad :) hihi...till then...xoxo~

the bedroom

theme: romantic ♥

~clean & tidy~
~simple & comfortable~

♥ canopy bed! i always want one!! with drapes...love2!

♥ lots & lots of pillows...i sleep with pillows all around me...people don't call the bed as nesting ground for no reason...hihi...

♥ fluffy mattress

♥ dark furnitures

♥ well combination of colours...preferably purple toned...lilac! :)

this one looks nice too

peach?

or greeny2?

or creamy2?

♥ well shades...simple, long curtains :)

♥ romantic lighting & candles...ahahaha...cheeky!

♥ smells good and did i mention the candles...woohooo~

♥ cosy sofa

♥ mirror :) 

♥ flowers~ calla lily...the fav :)

orchids are nice too...right?

and lavender?

or the classical roses? :)

waaaa~ best2...i wnt this room NOW!!!

dream the sweetest dream

for it will come true

one fine day

♥

my favourite : song 4 :)

H.O.M.E

by michael buble

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

♥ 

there's a new version of this song sang by westlife...but i prefer michael buble's than that...there're more feelings to it...oh god, i feel like crying already...homesick homesick!
I WANNA GO HOME (T_T)

my favourite : song 3 :)

THIS IS NOT A LOVE SONG

by nouvelle vague

This is not a love song
Happy to have, Not to have not
Big business is...Very wise
I'm crossing over into...Enter prize

This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song

I'm adaptable...And I like my new role
I'm getting better and better...And I have a new goal
I'm changing my ways...Where money applies
This is not a love song

This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song

I'm going over to the other side
I'm happy to have...Not to have not
Big business is...Very wise
I'm inside free...Enterprise

This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song

Not television
Behind the curtain
Out of the cupboard
You take the first train
Into the big world
Are you ready to grab the candle
Not television

This is not a love song~
This is not a love song~
This is not a love song~
This is not a love song~

:)

my favourite : song 2 :)

life love everything

here's one of my most heartmelting fav songs :)

by gabe bondoc (written by he himself)

check out the lyrics

so sweet la

*melts*

We’ve been together for a while now

And though I memorize your smile now

I’m still mesmerized, still hypnotized

You're still the woman that I first met

And though I didn’t know your name yet

I knew that something deep inside me

It just the yearn for you

This little box holds a shiny thing

A shiny ring that means you're everything

I'll get down on my knee, and ask you to be

My life, my love, my everything

All the music I’ve got 

Ooh baby is for you I sing

My life, my love, my everything

I refuse to go on without the joy you bring 

I'll look deep in your eyes

And ask you to be mine

Be mine… 

Love is complex in its simplicity

It shines the most when you are here with me

I can tell you can’t deny

You feel butterflies

It isn’t just because you’re beautiful

It's that you don’t think you’re beautiful

But I know that you know, that I do

This little box holds a shiny thing

A shiny ring that means everything

I'll get down on my knee, and ask you to be

My life, my love, my everything

All the music I've got

Ooh baby it’s for you I sing

My life, my love, my everything

I refuse to go on without the joy you bring 

I'll look deep in your eyes

And ask you to be mine

My once in a lifetime love

I hope you know that you’re the only one I’m thinking of

Please stay baby say you'll spend your life with me

‘Cause I’ll tell you right now

You’re all I wanna see

It’s for you I sing

My love, my life, my everything

I refuse to go on without the joy you bring

I'll look deep in your eyes

And ask you to be mine…

Be mine

♥

i love youtube!

♥ GaBeBoNdOc ♥

okayyy...before i start the intro about this guy, i'd tell everyone that one of my fav sites  to visit in the whole internet world is the YOUTUBE 
*clapclapclap*

i'd listen to the songs there whenever im bored, watch any videos or keep up any news or wutsoever there...haha...animes or drama series...you name it...i bet everyone knows wuts there right...and of course there'd be so many funny stupid videos posted on the site, hahaha...but there're also some very2 decent heartmelting ones ♥ 

and so here i'd like to tell everyone that im so into this gabe guy musics...ohohoho...blushhhing2...his voice is really like a sweet lullaby that would mesmerize all the babes out there with the first pitch itself...haha...okay im a bit exaggerating...but really, the 1st time i saw his video i was like "oh my god, how'd he come up with that voice? is tht his real voice?" and few seconds later "oh my god, he's really2 good...who is this guy again?" and after a minute "omg omg omg T_T " and i keep on melting~ and i even had goosebumps...hahaha

jst check these out...some of my fav songs tht he sang :)

lets melt together sweethearts!!!!

yaaaaaaaaahhhh (>_<)

hahahaha

heartbreak feels the same, no matter who you are

btw, i dont know why, there's sumthing bout this guy that reminds me of chuck bass (gossip girls) doesnt he look like one? hahaha ;p i wonder why the philipines are so good in singing...they're like so blessed with angelic voices...i want a guy like this...can i? can i? who could sing to me till i fell asleep :) *melts* 

overall, ths guy is a natural-born talent

i salute u bro! xoxo~

(oh please some label company, jst sign him up already!!)

confession of an innocent heart 3

hye i'm alia

and i'm suffering from

Trichotillomania

apekah bende ini? ahahaha...malu seyh

*sile google sendiri la*

haaa, dah google?

a clinical term of hair loss condition due to patient's repetitive self-pulling of hair

dlm kata lain "penyakit dok cabut rmbut"

...uhuhuhu...

ade sesape penah dengar atau mengalaminya sendiri?

seriously i am...so does some of my friends...shocking isn't it?

but im not tht serious...xde la smpai botak kepala, seb baik jugak rmbut tebal kan...agk2 kalau dilahirkan rmbut ciput je, sure dah tompok2 je kepala ni...huuu~ though some people who had become too chronic, they really end up being bald...tidakkkkkkkK!

situasi 1:

cik A - "eh awk, kejap2 ade rmbut gatai kt kepala tu"

cik B - "ye ke? ish, bile tumbuh balik ni, org da cabut dh aritu...huhu, nk buat ape ni?"

cik A - "cabut cpt2...yg keretak2 tu...boleh nmpk dpd cni..."

cik B - "huuu, rmbut mcm ni makin byk pulak...jenuh nk cabut la"

cik A - "tu la psl...kne rajin2 tgk...eh kejap, ader lagi satu tu, haa sini pun ade lagi" 

*dan sesi mencabut rmbut pun bermula*

cik B - "eh, kt rmbut awk pun ade jugak...cabut cpt..." 

*dan penyakit pun menular...huuu~*

situasi 2:

cik A berasa sungguh stress memandangkan exm bakal tiba beberapa hari lagi...sambil membelek2 buku di meja study, dirasakan sungguh tension...oleh itu, cik A mula melakukan sedikit stretching di kerusi utk merelekskn muscle2nye...letup2 jari sikit...leher pandang kiri kanan...dan seterusnya ikat balik rambut yg telah mula serabai...huuu...dan terus smbung study..."mcm best pulak pegang rmbut aku nih" bisik hatinya...da lme xpegi saloon...bile mule usap2 rmbut tetibe terbit dlm hatinya utk memetik sedikit rmbut2 yg dirase gatal...huuu~ dan sedikit demi sedikit rmbut dipetik...lame2 jadi bukit rmbut...huuu~

it looks like a habit, well people say so...a habit, bad one of course...but actually if u wanna know, it's now considered as a mental disorder in which the patient might done it consciously or unconsciously...and also the act of pulling hair might take place in 1-2 sites or even involving multiple sites...huuuu...see, penyakit mental tuuu~ :(

associated with irresistible urges to perform unwanted repetitive behavior...children are more often in the automatic or subconscious type and may not consciously remember pulling their hair...other individuals may have focused, or conscious hair pulling, including seeking specific types of hairs to pull, pulling until the hair feels "just right", or pulling in response to a specific sensation. betoiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!! huuuuuu~ but it's true, xleh tahan la...kdg2 di luar kesedaran pun...nasib baik la mine isn't tht serious...boleh control lagi

cepat2 beristighfar (ecehhh) dan kembali sedar kesian rmbut, lambat kot nk tumbuh tu

nape bende ni jadi? some says that it's due to stress/depression/sadness...some even said its due to genetic factors...huuu~ for some people, the urge of pulling hair might me satisfying, they took pleasure in it...and some did it out of guilt...For many, it’s similar to the sensation of cutting, with pain and pleasure mixed...

and owh, these individuals may be secretive or shameful of the hair pulling behavior (betoiiiiiiii) so listen people, stop pulling your hair...control your impulse to pull and redirect this impulse towards something else...make sure your hand hold something...keep it away from your hair as much as possible...same la kalau bab JJ (jerawat, jgn dok picit...or sentuh2, lame2 terase nk picit jugak...haha...begitu la analoginye ;p)

it's only in your head!!!

till then...end of confession! T_T

flow of thoughts 18

there's a huge difference btw 

sum1 who comes to you because he/she needs you

and sum1 who comes to you because he/she is bored

the problem is

do you care all that?

oh wutever sweethearts~

u can come whenever u wnt

its up to me to respond or not

in the end

its all up to me

*peace*
and oh, in case u don't know
i value only the people who values me
now how's that sound?

(hehe, mgu ni sume entries mcm dok emo je kn...haha..ala, bkn slalu kot ;p)

wutever!